December, 2009

Our days continue to dawn cold and grey as winter sets in for the long haul now. After Morning Offering Jim was off to his first visit with our new dentist. He enjoyed the visit since the new dentist is very friendly and open and all that was necessary for this visit was X-rays and teeth cleaning. But it was also determined that he would need three additional visits to replace two crowns and fillings.

As soon as he returned Mick took me to my manicure/pedicure and returned to pick me up at lunchtime. We were lucky to have just enough time for a burger and then it was time for a trip downtown.

As office waits go the wait at Dr. Harping’s office-my neurosurgeon for the upcoming operation was epic. Most of the rest of the day was spent waiting to see the doctor. I had begun a book during my manicure/pedicure and I finished it and we were still waiting. That’s how long the wait was. However, when we finally did visit with Dr. Harpring we found him to be very reassuring-looking a bit Kennedy-esque, bluff and handsome and possessed of divine self-confidence. He talked with me in a way that was warm and cherishing. I believe that he really cares about each and every patient. He took a good look at the sane MRI pictures that had caused Dr. Campbell to predict that there would indeed be an operation. And he saw even more cause for operating than had Dr. Campbell. He felt that it was possible that one of my discs had actually ruptured and so called for an even more detailed test, a myelogram. This is an X-ray using opaque die in the spine to achieve clarity and detail.

My heart sank. Another 5-hr. test, another hurdle to jump before we could schedule surgery. The good news is that I will definitely be able to go to Hawaii and teach before the operation. I probably won’t hear when the test is scheduled until after the first of the year. The bad news is that this delay seems at least to put the final kybosh on my plans to offer the day of contemplation and music planned for St. Luke’s for Feb. 20th. However, I will wait until I know more before canceling that date. Who knows? It could even be that the operation is scheduled after Feb. 20th!

After a good rest in my momma chair I went up to my office and got another good bit of progress made on planning the 2012 talk for Kona. Meanwhile Mick was able to get further on his land-clearing job for a customer. We came together again for a bath and then the toilet plunger incident began.

At about 7 pm, in the middle of a quiet evening the downstairs toilet overflowed and Jim got out our homemade toilet plunger made from a broomstick and the business end of a plunger. It was ineffective. However, it was very fortunate that he got it out!

A very kind plumber came and fixed our toilet and Mick and I went upstairs for a last cuddle shortly before 11 pm. As I was walking, my foot went out from under me and I fell. There was a piercing pain and I knew some damage had been done to my right foot. Toilet plunger to the rescue. It served admirably as my cane during the long night. The first thing the next morning after Morning Offering Mick took me to the Immediate Care Center in Middletown where yet another stress fracture between my big toe and my middle toe was diagnosed by X-ray.

Tommy, my brother, had arrived overnight from Virginia and as soon as I got settled he and I had a nice long talk while Mick went back to his customer and finished the clearing job, making a former wild area part of the customer’s beautiful lawns. It was really an exquisite piece of work and felt just right for closing out a great year for Jim’s Lawn Service.

Melissa had come into town to share New Year’s Eve with us and we had a lovely if very quiet celebration. Tommy came back from visiting his friends for a late supper. We offered the Gaia Meditation together at which I offered the closing prayer. Then we took in a football game, a dandy actually! Virginia Tech overpowered Tennessee in a good back and forth game with many exceptional plays.

As the game dwindled to its ending we started switching between the Dick Clark celebration and the world record attempt at the longest jump in a car across an open space. One by one we all went to sleep. About 11 I awoke at last and stirred everyone else up for the turn of the year and the decade. Sonia’s shrimp dip and champagne laced with Chambord made a wonderful snack and we toasted in the New Year together at midnight. Happy New Year! The day of the toilet plunger is also a day of great celebration and we look forward to all that will come with great joy and anticipation.

2009-12-29

December 30, 2009 6:22am

Enjoying the cold breezes of winter riffling through the thin sunshine of a Kentucky winter’s day, Melissa and I made our way, after Morning Offering, to Images—Melissa kindly driving for me in my present state—so I could have a facial, badly needed, and my eyebrows dyed. I have nice brows, but their native coloring is very pale, so I periodically get them artificially darkened. It’s a nice change!

Afterwards we indulged, as Mick had suggested, in having lunch at KT’s, a lovely little restaurant which is just around the corner from Images Salon. We had such a good time! Later on, at the end of the afternoon, she took me to LabCorp where I was able to give blood for my monthly lab tests associated with taking Arava. Great to get that done! She plans to come back next Monday and Tuesday to help me pack for Kona, bless her.

I spent the rest of the afternoon working further with the 2012 database, preparing for my Kona talk. I love it when a plan starts forming in my little head. It is not an altogether intellectual process at all to form a presentation. I rely on receiving a lot of intuited guidance, which has to come as it will—it cannot be forced. It is good to feel that yeasty process beginning to occur.

Monica L wrote to get my signature for a form having to do with the Kangen water treatment equipment which is offered through B4’s store. When people order it there, I get a credit towards my own equipment, as Monica has offered her commission to me whenever she makes such a sale. Is that not generous? I’ll have to wait till Gary returns to give her that, as the scanner is a mystery to me.

Both Gary and my brother Tommy were delayed in arriving today, Gary being stranded at an airport out west and Tommy lingering on the east coast to support his son, Ted, who is in a wrestling meet. He won tonight. Go Ted, tomorrow! And good luck on getting back here through the friendly skies, Gary!

Mick spent his day cleaning up a customer’s hedgerow of wild honeysuckle bushes, taking two loads of debris up to Avalon and dumping them into the feeder creek to bolster our access road. Through the years, this dumping of natural materials has really helped keep our road from eroding.

Sonia was again at the L/L desk all day, barring a rest in the afternoon. I am amazed at the way the orders keep coming in! She came to us just in time! Gary is swamped with L/L Research e-mail as the traffic has doubled in the last year. If he still had everything else to do too, we’d all be in trouble! Thank you, Spirit!

Mick and I had a spectacular TV evening, greatly enjoying the Kennedy Awards show. Mick offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation.

2009-12-28

December 29, 2009 2:23pm

Finally, winter with teeth is moving in, but gently for all the cold, small breezes that taste like wine and skiffs of snow and black ice. The town was full of fender-benders in the homecoming traffic. But no snow accumulation at all. Sigh! I am a sucker for the sheer beauty of a fresh snowfall.

Mick came up with me after Morning Offering and we worked on my journal entries. I drove him nuts, wanting to look up screen credits so I could praise some of the crew and cast in Julie and Julia. Everyone has special styles and skills and it’s so fascinating to see how they can clash so unexpectedly. We moved through the moment with a lot of love—we are old hands at loving each other by now, thank the good Lord.

Before Mick quit the scene, he wrote a heads-up notice on our impending L/L Research Board Meeting to the Board Members, which will take place New Year’s Day. After he left I figured out how to access Gary’s Board Send List and got that sent out.

I wrote another thank you note, one for a gift I had forgotten I had received but remembered when I finished putting away the Christmas swag. I also input new recipes to the database collected from the paper around Christmastide—sausage balls, cocktail meatballs, cabbage lasagne soup, sharp cheddar grits and French Pie. It all sounds so good! I spent a bit of time reminiscing about the days when I could have tried those recipes out and indulged both my taste buds and my curiosity. Those days are so long-gone that the dust from their settling has been buried for years. In my mind, though, I still cook as I play with the recipes I collect and make them my own before saving them to the database. One day, the recipes may well be made—not by me, but their time will come!

Then I gazed at my clean desk and knew it was time to begin creating the actual talks I will give at the Kona Conference. So I spent the rest of the afternoon starting through the 53-page database Gary helped me create on 2012. I went through perhaps one-third of the quotes before bath time.

I spent a frustrating half hour trying to talk to a human being at United Air Lines and failing. You can call them, but their options menu does not contain the option of speaking to a human. It sends you back to the web site. Then the web site sends you to the customer service number that tells you to go to the web site. It is a complete do-loop.

Finally I found a contact e-mail address and wrote them asking whether I can take my own wheel chair to Hawaii, whether they will get Mick, me and the chair from one gate to the next in less than an hour’s layover in Chicago and whether the e-mail paperwork I got from the producers of the Conference is sufficient to board us. I can find no confirmation number and that worries me. I hope they respond in a timely fashion. It is very concerning to a passenger with these questions not to be able to talk to a representative.

At the end of the afternoon, I started thinking more about the Magical Personality Gathering we are putting together for February and ended the work day by writing Gary in detail about the curriculum. I figure I will be running out of time soon for all such contemplative work other than Kona, and it felt really good to lay out for Gary the scanning he will need to do to get the texts I want to use ready for the attendees.

This conference will be by invitation only, as it demands a great deal of previous work. Those attending will be Law of One scholars all and, for the most part, previous attendees at Gatherings on the Archetypes as discussed by Ra. It should be a great way to work during my healing time, when all I can do is sit there and facilitate and talk!

Sonia spent all day at the L/L desk, taking time out only to nap for an hour when she got back-tired. She got a mountain of work done on the computer and a huge pile of book orders ready to be shipped.

Mick spent his afternoon working to clear a roadside hedgerow for a customer which was full of wild honeysuckle bushes. He got everything cut and the first trailer-load of debris loaded to take to Avalon tomorrow.

After a very relaxing bath, Mick and I played together in the fields of the Lord, transferring a ton of good energy. Then we joined Sonia for dinner and the Gaia Meditation, at which I offered the closing prayer.

2009-12-27

December 28, 2009 9:20am

Another cold winter’s day dawned in Kentucky this morning. I was feeling low enough in energy and high enough in discomfort that I decided to stay home from church today and rest. After Morning Offering Mick and I came upstairs so he could type my journal entries for me and catch up on email. That took most of the morning since we had arisen late. I caught up on thankyou notes while Mick did chores around the house and ran a few more errands. Sonia was busy off and on at the desk today typing up shipping labels and mailing out books. She also created some more stuffing for our Christmas dinner reruns.

After lunch we had a good nap and I also read some and then we saw an absolute celebration of a movie, Julie & Julia. Meryl Streep ran away with the movie of course! When does she not? Stanley Tucci was beyond excellent as her husband. Julie was played by Amy Adams and her husband was played by Eric Powell. Amy did a fine job playing a young woman who decides to spend a year cooking every recipe in Julia Child’s cookbook. The ensemble was extensive and radiant. Nora Ephron who produced and directed the film created a masterpiece or should it be a mistress piece? I was dissolved into laughter half the time and close to tears six or seven times before the movie ended.

In addition to an incredible script and wonderful performances the film had other glories. Its music was so extensive as to make it impossible for me to give it credit and it was all grand. Most of all I must give full praise to the cinematographer, Stephen Goldblatt, and the exquisite perception of those who dressed the sets, chose costuming, and created image after image so rich in color and composition detail that it would take many re-watchings to appreciate the work. This film is as sturdy an art film as it is a piece of entertainment. It was just fantastic. Get this film or go see it if you possibly can.

Blown away by the joy of this movie I simply sat for the rest of the evening and soaked it in. After another delicious Christmas dinner with brand new stuffing we turned on the University of Kentucky bowl game hoping to see them beat the Clemson Tigers. However, the Wildcats came away bleeding and the Tigers won the bowl victory. It was a great game to watch.

Mick offered the closing prayer at tonight’s Gaia Meditation.

2009-12-26

December 27, 2009 9:50am

The weather continued to become colder but it was a pretty, sunny day, something that we always enjoy here in Kentucky where the cold weather brings a lot of gray days. After Morning Offering Mick and I came upstairs and he typed my journal entries for me and then went out for a round of errands. I wrote thank you notes until noon and then joined him for lunch and then an hour’s nap.

Mick spent his afternoon continuing to clear some mature trees of overgrown vinca minor vines, 30 years of overgrowth. Mick is now done with everything that he can do for that customer in clearing the wild area until the ground freezes and he can get his truck and trailer back to haul away what he has cut. Meanwhile I surprised myself by deciding to write the article on the suffering of the world and the light of the world that has been brewing in my mind for several weeks. Admittedly, I worsened the level of nerve pain in my arms by doing that. However, I feel that it was worth it in order to share with those few who appreciate my articles the reasons for my not writing articles until April or so of next year.

I came downstairs just as Mick came home from his labors and we bathed together and then joined Sonia for a rerun of Christmas dinner. It was just as good the second time! We were still finishing that meal when Walter and Lynn came for our public meeting, and so we segued right into our evening of study and meditation together.

After the round robin discussion we discovered that we did not have a group question tonight to offer Q’uo, so I asked a question that has been on my mind as I start chapter two of 102: The Outer Work. I have been pondering the makeup of emotions-where they come from and how to evaluate them in our own daily lives. The group was happy to let that be our question for the evening. I greatly look forward to seeing that transcript when it comes back from the transcriber. Hopefully it will help me out a lot as I write Chapter Two.

I offered the Gaia Meditation prayer at the end of our channeling session. It felt very good to me to get in a second channeling session this December and keep to my promise to myself to be faithful in practicing my gift twice a month nine months a year. It was a great way to finish out L/L Research’s year.

The only email that I did today was a group letter to all of those who send me forwards. I know many people do not want to get them, but I greatly appreciate the jokes, the beauty, and the alternative music and news of the day as well. However, since I am basically off the computer until I recover from spinal surgery and am dependent on Mick and Gary to help me keep up with my inbox and journaling, neither man has the time to deal with the forwards.

2009-12-25

December 26, 2009 9:26am

What a merry Christmas we had here at Camelot. We slept decadently late and when I came down shortly before 9 am Melissa and Sonia said that they felt like little kids waiting and waiting for the adults to wake up so that Christmas could begin.

Melissa, Sonia, Romi, Mick and I breakfasted elegantly on a casserole of bacon, eggs, and hash browns which tasted wonderful. Then we made our Morning Offering and turned to the serious business of opening presents.

The first order of business was opening stocking presents. Melissa had created stockings for all of us and Gary, Sonia and I had created a stocking for Melissa which surprised her. She was delighted indeed!

Mick played Christmas Elf and distributed all of the presents under the tree. Then we went around the circle and opened our presents one by one showing them to the group. We got some wonderful big presents, the dish washer that was just put in turns out to be a present from many in the house and frequent visitors like Tom C. And Romi gave L/L Research a brand new heavy duty computer to replace Growler, the computer which holds the massive software for our bookkeeping and has gone terminally screwy in the last few months. It just can’t handle the load. It will still work well as a computer for Melissa’s room in the basement, so we haven’t lost anything, just added the equipment that we need.

So many presents and so many delightful additions to wardrobe and pantry-too much candy to believe, all of it good, three bottles of wine, Tom C’s fruitcake and Romi’s cheese and cracker basket.

In addition to a wonderful new flannel night gown from Melissa I received two gifts from Mish that made me cry. She crocheted me a healing shawl for after my operation as well as a beautiful pair of fingerless mittens which will help me type out in my French porch office on 102-The Outer Work-when I recover from the operation enough to get back to that work. I can’t wait! Mish has said that our place is the only one she has ever been in in which all the vibrations are true love. Her translations into French of so many of our works are true love indeed. But these handmade gifts touched my heart in a deeply intimate and personal way.

Mick and I both received some cash from Mom McCarty which we will put into our fund for an overnight visit to the 21st Century Museum and Hotel. That is our Christmas gift to each other this year. Everyone that has been there has told me what a delightful experience it is to be there. And we have already been to their restaurant, Proof on Main, and know what a treat it will be to eat there.

By the time we had finished opening presents we had sampled so many candies that we decided to skip lunch and wait for the feast to come. Romi went home, choosing to spend the rest of his Christmas making phone calls to his family and working to get his home settled in-he just moved to his very first house recently after a lifetime of apartment living. Melissa and Sonia repaired to the kitchen to prepare our Christmas feast of turkey, honey-baked ham, scalloped carrots, mashed potatoes, gravy, and dressing. Mick and I came upstairs and he typed my journals entries for me.

We had agreed yesterday that we would take some time for a Christmas Day nap. It was wonderful! We awoke around 4 pm and came back into the office to create an agenda for our annual meeting which will occur whenever our vice president, Morris H., can be with us. We finished just in time to go downstairs to enjoy one of the best meals I have ever had topped off with cherry pie. I think I may have gained 5 lbs. today! While Jim worked on laundry and ironing, Melissa, Sonia, and I watched a couple of lovely old movies with Christmas themes. One starring Robert Mitchum and Janet Leigh and the other starring Debbie Reynolds and Dick Powell. They really don’t make them like that anymore! It was such fun to see movies made in such simpler times and such innocent times.

Then Mick and I came upstairs for an amazing and magical date. I think we missed the Gaia Meditation once again, but hopefully our love-making was a good substitute, for we felt as though we were making sunshine together. And so ended one of the loveliest Christmases I can ever remember here at Camelot.

2009-12-24

December 25, 2009 1:04pm

Christmas Eve dawned with far nicer weather than had been predicted once again. After Morning Offering Mick and I came back upstairs so he could do my journal entries for me. He is getting better and better at transcribing my voice. Consequently we are having a better and better time doing it together. It is tremendously helpful for him to do this since after the upcoming spinal operation I will not have the option of doing this for myself for a while.

For the rest of the morning Mick ran errands while I took care of answering Mrs. Swan’s beautiful hand-written note by snail mail. I also hand wrote Tom Chaney a thank you note for his wonderful fruit cake which weighs in at over 5 lbs. and his generous donation to L/L Research as well.

Gary and Tobey had suggested to Jim and me that we have a members only gathering where we studied the magical personality, so I wrote Jim, Gary, and Tobey to suggest that we have the Magical Personality Gathering during the time that I am recovering from surgery. It sounds like the perfect thing for me to do when I can’t do anything but sit there. I also suggested that we add to the very small number Judy R. whose dedication to L/L Research’s work is incredible and whose scholarship and faithfulness to the precepts to the Law of One is second to none. I think she will be an excellent addition to this small band of bozos.

For our curriculum I suggested a very small but very powerful book of W. E. Butler’s. In very few pages it outlines what we need to study about the magical personality in order to somewhat alleviate our bozo status. In addition I suggested that we work with the Banishing Ritual of the Lesser Pentagram each evening. There are many visualizations necessary for performing this ritual of the cleansing of a sacred space and we can work on a different one each night.

Having made the decision to seek closure with Hampton Roads on Barbara Brodsky’s and my manuscript, The Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues, I felt that it was time to write Judy R., the pre-editor of this wonderful magical work, about another big pre-editing job, the e-version of A Wanderer’s Handbook. We printed the abridged version which contained 800 pages of the original 1200 page manuscript. Ever since 2001 when that printed book came out I have wanted to make an e-book out of the unabridged version of that work. That missing 400 pages contains tons of good material, not only from the Confederation quotes but also from many Wanderers’ correspondence to me and from my own writing.

Judy had agreed to do this work two years ago, when she finished A/Q. However I was extremely reluctant to task her with anything else until we got the first book published. So the project has hung fire. I feel fairly sure that Bob Friedman at Hampton Roads will reject Barbara Brodsky’s and my co-channeling. This does not faze me. We will simply slot the co-channeling manuscript into the queue of manuscripts awaiting Ian’s magical transformation from manuscript into lulu.com books. Since they are print on demand, we do not have to put money up front or maintain an inventory here in order to make our work available on lulu. Once Ian has the 18 volumes of our printed archives done, as well as Don Elkin’s little booklet, Barbara’s and my co-channeling will be next. The manuscript is impeccable, so it merely awaits Ian’s magic production. And so it is basically off of my list.

I asked Judy in a fairly long letter if she would like to visit during the time of my recovery from spinal surgery so that we could talk over this big project of merging the abridged version back into the unabridged version. I hope that she can come then, and coordinate her trip with our Magical Personality Gathering. She does have to visit in order to carry the huge file of all of my background work on the unabridged Wanderer’s Handbook when she goes home.

As the afternoon wore on Mick went back over to his customers’ to continue removing vines from a couple of large trees. Meanwhile I wrote Morris H., our vice president at L/L Research to thank him for his generous donation and to discuss the holding of the annual meeting. I had intended to write the whole Board and arrange a call-in meeting ahead of time. However I have been feeling sufficiently poorly that a good many things have failed to make it from intention into manifestation. This is one of them. So I suggested to Morris that he let us know when he could make it here in person for the annual meeting. Once we know that, Mick and I can notify the other Board members and simply hope that some of them can call in. Fortunately this is not a crises point for L/L Research. Our donations have been the most generous ever. And we have had an amazingly productive year, with the publication of three new books.

Our new web site has grown from zero to almost a thousand new members in less than a year and our forums have received over six thousand posts in the same time period. And our email traffic at L/L Research has doubled in the last year. So our annual meeting is more pro forma than problem solving.

After doing a few more personal emails I rested for the rest of the afternoon enjoying Mick when he came in for our bath. By that time Melissa had joined Sonia, Mick and me, and we enjoyed dinner together and the Gaia Meditation at which Mick offered the closing prayer.

Romi came over at 10 pm for hot apple cider, phyllo crab shells and cucumber sandwiches, after which everybody went to St. Luke’s midnight service where we sang Happy Birthday to Jesus with great joy.

2009-12-23

December 24, 2009 9:34am

Under warm changing weather Mick and I arose and made our Morning Offering. Then we set off to town to go to the Norton Leatherman’s Spine Center to have another MRI scan of my spine. The nurses were wonderful and made the tests go by quickly. I also prayed to Holly and she gave me a song to sing in order to take away my claustrophobia-the MRI apparatus really closes one in.

After that we had an appointment with Dr. Campbell, the spine surgeon, who read the MRI and affirmed that I had “the real deal” and was definitely in need of an operation. He did not pull any punches, telling us that one of the risks of such surgery is death. I had known that, but I respect him for being completely clear from the outset as to the risks involved.

I believe that we have exhausted all other options if I want to keep working at the computer. Even with Mick doing my journal entries, as he is doing this morning, my pain level remains high. I do not believe that I can reduce this pain any further even if I completely refrain from outer work. Further, I am told that the spine continues to disintegrate at a fairly rapid rate. I think this is the right time for me to choose to go through this procedure and to stabilize my back for a long and healthy life in which I can continue my creative work.

Mick too was satisfied that we were on the right path after talking with Dr. Campbell. It was important to both of us that he be at peace in his own mind about this procedure. We shall go forward from this point dedicating this time of repair and healing to the Infinite Creator and the rest of our lives to our highest and best service to Him.

When we returned home we enjoyed lunch together before Mick set out for more clearing work at his customer’s estate. He came home at dusk very satisfied with his work. Meanwhile I did the email that remained in the inbox after Gary cleaned up everything that he could for me yesterday. I wrote to thank Angelika for a mailing address for our vending goods at the Kona conference. It is more economical to ship the goods to be sold than to try to take them with us on the airline.

I also responded to several more of Terry Hsu’s translation questions on 101 The Choice. His group is translating this book into Chinese.

I also caught up with Seline of the Anglican Fellowship of Prayer who asked if I was still going ahead with St. Luke’s Day of Pray on February 20th. I told her that I was waiting until the New Year to make the final decision. I need to talk to Dr. Harpring, the neurosurgeon that I will see on Dec. 30th and find out when the operation is scheduled and what my recovery time is likely to be before I take this consideration into prayer.

I had a powerful intuition that it was time to write Bob Friedman at Hampton roads publishing about The Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues, a perfectly wonderful book of co channeling by Barbara Brodsky and me which he has held for over a year and a half. He will probably reject the book since I am pressing him to make a decision, and at this point this is fine with me. If Barbara agrees L/L Research will publish the book on lulu.com which is a wonderful way to get the book out there and available in printed form without upfront inventory costs either to L/L Research or to Deep Spring Center, a nonprofit group which supports Barbra’s work.

Mick and I enjoyed bath together and some rest before joining Sonia for dinner and the Gaia Meditation at which I offered the closing prayer.

2009-12-22

December 23, 2009 1:56pm

Terrible weather had been predicted, but it did not transpire which was fortunate for Melissa and me! After morning offering Melissa and I headed out to cross the Ohio River and visit 21st Century Medicine where I had prolo therapy on my lumbar spine with Dr. Johnson and sacral cranial therapy with Liz. We stopped for a burger on the way to see the Norton Leatherman Spine Center for trigger point injections to help with the pain. Unfortunately these injections work only on muscular pain and not on nerve pain. They explained that they could not do the epidurals, which are for nerve pain, because of the upcoming MRI test. When Melissa and I returned home I rested for a while and then came upstairs, feeling reckless, and spent some time on the computer. I wrote my Camelot Journal entry for yesterday and responded to quite a bit of email that had to do with family and Christmas. I found that my brother, Tommy, will be joining us from the 29th through the 31st of December. We will greatly enjoy seeing him. My other brother, ten years older than Tommy but three years my junior, Jim,wrote to say that he had gotten our package. Melissa will be glad to know that our packages are arriving right on time.

I also thanked Wynn Free for his quite detailed explanation for something that he had said on our radio interview Monday night. Like a lot of very serious seekers Wynn has a strong tendency to operate in this life time using rationales woven together from past life experiences which he has had. I have never resonated with this kind of logic. We have a veil in place for a reason, and I personally feel that I have all the information that I need about my spiritual journey and my service from that which I have gleaned from this present lifetime. Consequently I responded to Wynn by saying that I really appreciated his taking the time to connect the dots on his inner logic, although I did not resonate to it. I also responded to emails from Angelika concerning our need for a vendor table at the Kona conference in January (the 4th Annual Earth Transformation Conference) and with Gary’s help responded to a couple of questions from Terry Hse concerning the translation of 101 The Choice into Chinese.

Mick had spent his day cutting more brush from one of his customer’s estates and when he came home we rendezvoused for a bath together and a short rest before choir practice.

Gary worked early and late today getting the data base of quotes from our archives on 2012 into shape for me to use while he is gone over the holidays. I am thrilled to death that he was able to finish this work! I asked him to arrange the quotes chronologically so that I could see what the Confederation has said about 2012 and the time of shift from the time of the Ra contact in the early ‘80s until the present day. I will use this database as a central reference in creating my Kona presentation on 2012.

Melissa too was incredibly busy all day and all evening. She should have had a pixie hat on because she was deep into her role as Santa’s elf. By the time I got back from choir practice she had finished wrapping every Christmas present.

Choir practice was hectic to say the least but fruitful. I was able to get final markings on the Charpentier “Mass for Christmas Eve” that we will be using for the Eucharist at our midnight service. My voice cooperated. This time last week there was no voice at all! It is still weak and small but sings a true tone now and hopefully another day’s recuperation from the sinusitis will let me be more of a helpful part of the choir by Christmas Eve.

I’m sorry to say that in my complete exhaustion I neglected to hold this evening’s Gaia Meditation which I almost never do. Hopefully from now on I will not repeat that error.

2009-12-21

December 22, 2009 3:16pm

It snowed a bit more overnight, but the warm air soon melted it away and we enjoyed a fairly warm, if overcast, day. After Morning Offering, Mick and I came upstairs to work on my journal entries, which he most kindly typed in for me.

I rested until lunch and then lay on my bed working with Melissa on clearing old clothes out of six storage boxes, which she now

needs for when we store our Christmas supplies after the New Year brings Epiphany and the time to dismantle all the colors and lights we have out now for the Holidays. Then I came downstairs to continue working with her as she decorated the house for Christmas. Thanks to my Christmas-mad Mom, I have far more than enough with which to decorate any three houses and we cannot put it all out each year. Melissa and I worked on choosing this year’s decorations until bath time.

After Mick and I bathed, we came upstairs for a glorious, incredible dance in the fields of the Lord. We dallied until dinnertime and then went down to eat with Sonia and Melissa. We did the Gaia Meditation a bit early tonight, Mick praying at the end. Then it was time for me to come to the upstairs office for my monthly interview with Wynn Free on BBS Radio. It was most enjoyable tonight.

Before I shut down the computer for the night I responded to Julia M-B of www.kajama.com, giving her permission to put up some of my writing from A Channeling Handbook. I also responded to a note from Gary concerning a possible Gathering in our L/L future, assuring him that Mick and I would discuss the idea.

Lastly, finding that Wynn had called back after the show was over and I had missed it—my telephone up here is on the fritz—I wrote him an e-mail letting him know what fun I’d had tonight and inviting him to call back if he needs to discuss anything. I said good-night to Jennie Traveller and shut her down, then cuddled with Mick until near midnight, when we said our last prayers and went to bed.

2009-12-20

December 21, 2009 9:27am

The dawn brought a skiff of snow, beautiful to look at, and soon gone as the day warmed up to about 40 degrees. Because I was still in too poor a voice to sing in the choir and felt quite poorly besides I stayed home from church. Instead we had a good morning offering.

Mick and I came upstairs after that to do my journals for the last two days. That took us until 11 o’clock. After that Mick unplugged the two fish pond pumps and got them running again but was unable to get his large mower running even after recharging the battery. So he will have to take it to the shop on Monday. Drats.

I rested until lunch time and after Mick took a nap and I had a good read we watch The Other Man, an art film distinguished by exquisite attention to color, the ground always being either beige or gray with tones of black, laid against sudden bursts of blue geometric shapes as the filmmaker focused upon the overarching gilded-age windowed ceilings of railway stations and other transportation terminals.

The two men who dominated the film were equally beautiful. Liam Neeson played the plain yet somehow noble husband while Antonio Banderas turned in a stellar performance as a sleazy janitor, the “other man”, who was loved by Neeson’s character’s wife. They too were largely iconic objects for the camera to love. There may have been a plot. If so, I never penetrated it. Nevertheless I enjoyed the film as an object of art and, above all, salute Banderas’ ability to act only with his eyes so effectively as to charge a whole scene with emotion. He is truly an excellent film actor and a man of exquisite sensibility.

I had fought to stay awake during the movie and so arranged with Mick to take a nap before we focused on our project for the break time which was to prepare the last batch of Christmas cards for sending to my classmates at MacDuffie. We got that done although I neglected to remember to sign them, which is really too bad of me.

I was also fuzzy enough from my very deep nap that I mistook the date, making reservations for a San Francisco hotel near to the airport for our trip to Hawaii. I immediately wrote their customer service department asking them to change the date by one day. I hope that they will be merciful. Otherwise I will have spent my husband’s hard earned money in vain. I still have one reservation to make for the trip coming back from Hawaii but I decided to make it at another time when I might be more alert!

We spent a quiet evening with Sonia. Mick offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation.

2009-12-18 and 19

December 20, 2009 10:20am

This is a two day entry spanning waking up in Boonville, MO. and including our first full day at home. Our last day on the road was memorable for its full bubble effect-that joyous feeling that Mick and I get when we are able to spend time by ourselves. We rode along in a joyful bubble of contentment, sometimes talking, sometimes silent, sometimes listening to music together. The plains gave way to knobland as we waved goodbye to St. Louis’s arch and moved into Illinois and Indiana at last.

As always, when we finish our Nebraska visits, we finished our trip with a marvelous meal at the Red Lobster. And then we were home, greeted immediately by Pickwick but scorned by Chloe for a full day.

In our absence Sonia and Melissa had created a fully beautiful decorated Christmas tree in the living room, and icicle lights were strung along the front porch. It felt wonderful to be home! Both evenings we passed the peace rather than having a formal meditation. However we did include our Morning Offerings both days.

The rest of my evening at home was spent relaxing in my momma chair while Jim buzzed around getting us both unpacked. Finally, at midnight or so, we said our last prayers and went, for the first time in over a week, to our very own beds. It was wonderful.

Today Mick set out after Morning Offering into the very damp and sometimes rainy weather to clean up some leaves for the rest of his customers. It took him most of the day. But he did everything he wanted to do and was very satisfied.

Meanwhile in addition to resting for most of the day I spent some time with Gary who helped me pare down my 145 emails to 35. Most of that was deleting all forwards since, in my present condition, I cannot attend to them, but I was also able to respond to all emails from Ian and from Gary himself. In the process Gary and I talked over quite a few points of policy. Most importantly, we decided not to schedule any channeling or counseling sessions for me until April at the earliest.

I asked Gary to break down the priority of the work I usually do-book writing, article writing, channeling, editing, and teaching. Gary felt that the two most important of these activities were channeling and book writing. He suggested that I ask Steve T. if he would be interested in editing my channeling sessions for me. I agreed that Steve had every quality needed to do a good job of that and OK’ed his writing Steve to ask if he might be interested in helping out in this way.

Gary passed on to me the request of some seekers that I have my own weekly talk show. I pointed out that while I was certainly able to respond to any questions that were called in that we did not have the structure in place to do such a show. There needs to be someone with a long list of possible questions to discuss in case nobody calls in. Gary suggested that perhaps Monica L., who moderates the forums on B4, might be a natural for this position since many questions come up in the forums that might well be asked in such a program. I encouraged him to explore that avenue further.

I seem to have brought a bit of Nebraska home with me as my sinuses and nose are very inflamed and I seem to be losing my voice. Mick took me down to Walgreen’s “Take Care Center” and a very competent nurse practiconer as sinusitis. She gave me a prescription for an antibiotic to clear up the infection and also asked if I would use a sinus cleanser twice daily as a regular practice. She also suggested that I ask Dr. Lang, my nutritionist, about using a probiotic such as culturelle on a regular basis as long as I am taking the antibiotic. I shall need to call her on Monday.

2009-12-16

December 17, 2009 9:07am

It was a good bit warmer today. As is my lot until the operation on my spine creates a better environment for me to do my physical work with the computer I rested today. However in the afternoon Jim and I ventured out into the smiling winter skies to find a pair of work shirts for him and some new CDs for our music collection. One out of two! We got the shirts. We will have to find the music back in Louisville or on line.

We invited Jim’s cousin, Shirley and her husband, Babe, to dinner at the Vet’s Club and that was our last meal together on this vacation. The food was delicious, and we had a good time catching up. Cousin Shirley calls mom every day and we are extremely grateful for her care and affection for mom.

Our last evening together was spent watching several hours of Criminal Minds and CSI New York. And so ended our holiday with mom. We will leave out as soon as we get our Morning Offering done tomorrow. I think it’s been a really good stay. Needless to say, we both are most eager to return home!

2009-12-15

December 16, 2009 11:18am

The Nebraska weather continued to be near zero, and I stayed in and rested most of the day. However, Mick and I did go out to get white roses to put on Jim’s dad’s grave. It was so peaceful in the cemetery with its burden of snow and all of the beautiful old stones marking lives of good people for the last century or so.

Mick found a cul de sac at the corner of the cemetery and we pulled in there to check in with Gary who was at the L/L Research helm today back in Kentucky. He reported that all was well at Camelot.

Later in the afternoon, having tried the suggestions that Gary had given us to get onto the email at the server and failed, we again called Gary. Fortunately Sonia was also in the office and she knew the magic address which was somewhat different from the one that Gary had found. And it worked! So while we were out this evening we collected 145 emails. Tomorrow we will check through and see what needs to be done with that.

We gave Mom her birthday present and took her out to dinner at, by far, the nicest restaurant in this area, a place called Grandpa’s. It’s mostly a steak place and Mick and I indulged in delicious filets while mom had barbequed ribs. I think mom liked her suit and earrings very well. I hope that it fits her. However, I did include the receipt and a catalogue with the present in case she wants to choose something else.

We also spoke briefly with Angelika confirming that we had gotten our e-tickets for the flight there on January 7th. I really look forward to doing the teaching in Kona. What a treat to share the Confederation’s good news about 2012.

Mick and I passed the peace together, not wanting to disturb mom’s TV, and we spent our usual Nebraska evening-TV, usually a sport unless we can pry her away from game spheres into realms of dramatic series such as CSI and NCIS. We also have been enjoying Criminal Minds and saw two episodes of that.

When you look at what we got done today and how we spent our time it is difficult to see the deep value of time together with mom. She doesn’t like to converse and is often asleep, but I know in my heart that this means more to her than rubies and gold-just to be with her boy, and we are glad to be here for her.

2009-12-14

December 15, 2009 10:56am

Even before Morning Offering Mick and I were out and about, ferrying Mom’s car to be fixed. The heater stopped working, and in a Nebraska winter that really needs to be repaired quickly. It was barely above zero and I was happy to see how warm my new coat was. I was snug and cozy.

We came back to have breakfast and share Morning Offering with mom. Then Mick and I rewrote the Christmas letter for friends, family, and St. Luke’s people, taking out some detail on L/L Research’s year and adding personal stuff. Mick got the letters all printed out, the cards stuffed, and everything was mailed off at the main post office in town.

There remains one area of the Christmas card list undone due to my inability to retrieve my email. I stayed up until after 2 am one night trying to get all of my back mail, but the downloads are the same letters over and over again and they are all dated last Friday. Unfortunately I had sent a shout out to my classmates last week for news and I can’t really write the MacDuffie cards letter until I am able to retrieve my email. So we have 55 Christmas cards yet to send when we get home

Mick and I got adventurous and went to a new Spanish restaurant out on the highway called San Pedro’s. The food was excellent, and we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly. Somehow we just couldn’t talk mom into going with us. I was hoping to introduce her to the delights of quesadillas.

The remainder of my day was spent reading and napping. I am still dealing with the nerve pain, and unfortunately I am either allergic to something in this house or am coming down with some sort of sinus infection. So I have been dealing with nose bleeds and sinus pain as well. Our evening was spent with mom and Mick watching football on TV and me resting. We are enjoying the vacation and the change of scenery but are beginning to look forward to coming back to Camelot.

Jim and I continued our new tradition of exchanging the Gaia Peace rather than taking time for it in order not to disturb mom’s TV.

2009-12-13

December 15, 2009 10:53am

It was a beautiful cold day here in Nebraska. I never poked my nose out all day. I kept warm and cozy at either reading or sleeping. Mick and I collaborated to create the letter for our Christmas cards that go to those that are L/L related friends. He got those letters stuffed into the cards and those cards ready to mail.

There was an enormous amount of football on TV in the background today.

It was our accompaniment to all activities. We all enjoyed it thoroughly. Jim and I exchanged the Gaia Meditation peace tonight.

2009-12-12

December 14, 2009 5:13pm

Jim and I both slept extremely well. My sleep was helped greatly by the plastic inflatable wedge that I had purchased for just this use. It made a motel bed into a far more comfortable bed for a person used to sleeping on articulated beds.

We decided to eat on the road and after Jim got us all packed up we had our Morning Offering and checked out. It was a heavenly day for a drive, full of sunshine and very light traffic, and we made it to a little place in Junction City, KS. called Stacey’s for lunch. After that it was a straight shot up to Interstate 80 after we got to Highway 81 at Salina, KS. Then it was west on 80 to Lexington and Mom’s home.

We were welcomed with open arms and a wonderful dinner. I distinguished myself by falling asleep both before dinner and after. In fact Mick had his hands full getting me into bed. And once again we missed the Gaia Meditation. Hopefully, now that I am here, we won’t do that again. But I must admit that traveling beats me up! I’m very grateful to have made it so well. And now we’ll have a lovely visit with Mom.

2009-12-11

December 14, 2009 5:09pm

2009-12-10

December 14, 2009 5:07pm

High winds had blown through all of yesterday, leaving this morning very cold and sunshiny. It was like pulling teeth leaving home, slow and painful. That always seems to be the case when we are leaving on this particular trip. We want to be good to Jim’s mom, but we don’t want to be in Nebraska. It’s hard to leave Camelot, our place of comfort.

This morning it was harder than usual because we had to wait for the drugstore to unsnarl a snafu on one of my prescriptions. So we got off a full hour later than usual.

In the middle of the afternoon, driving towards St. Louis, Mick spied a tiny fluffball of a grey kitten playing in a ditch at the side of the freeway. He pondered going back for the kitten and decided that it was something that he needed to do. So we drove back a half hour down the road and looked carefully for that kitten, but, alas, it was gone. A critic might say that it is impractical to take in a stray kitten while away on a journey, but I thought that Jim’s open heart was wonderful, and I was behind him all the way.

So we arrived at our destination at 7:30 instead of 5:30 because we had lost an hour in the morning too. And I was so tired that I could barely keep my eyes open. I revived with a considerable feast at the hotel’s excellent restaurant. And we topped the meal off with a special dessert-a date! It was sweeter than honey.

We forgot the Gaia Meditation completely which we hardly ever do and went straight to sleep. All in all it was an excellent day.

2009-12-09

December 10, 2009 9:49am

It was a fairly nasty day, cold and wet, and after Morning Offering Jim and I came upstairs so Jim could type out my journal entries. We finished at mid-morning and Jim set out on his list of chores he keeps for rainy days. Meanwhile Melissa and I started the packing process.

Before lunch we got my motel bag, which is also my computer carrying bag, packed for the trip to Nebraska. Then Sonia, Melissa and I went out for our Christmas celebration lunch at Limestone Restaurant. We had a great time and had girlfriend giggles for a solid two hours.

Melissa and I spent the rest of the afternoon packing me up to go to Nebraska. Melissa did 98% of the work, but my 2% exhausted me completely! In my present condition I can only be active for about a minute before I need to sit down and rest. When we finished, Melissa spent the rest of her very long work day getting our Christmas packages ready to mail out.

Melissa and Sonia went out at the end of the afternoon to do some of their own Christmas shopping and returned by the back door just as pizza was being delivered into the front door. We enjoyed dinner and conversation and then the Gaia Meditation, at which I offered the closing prayer.

I know it’s a gamble for me to visit before the operation, but at the same time I feel that I can be as comfortable propped up with pillows in the car, as I would be here at home. And I know that Jim appreciates my being there when he visits his mom. What a joy to know that we are ready to go.

2009-12-08

December 9, 2009 9:08am

After morning offering Mick and I came upstairs to make the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday. It took a while because so much is happening right now. The rest of Jim’s work day was a rainout, but as usual he kept busy with chores and errands that he saves for rainy days

I did a good deal of resting today but was on call for Melissa who has commandeered the better part of the basement for creating an assembly line for wrapping Christmas presents and shipping them.

Gary too was as busy as a bee today doing his best to get caught up on L/L Research email and projects. Sonia was in the office too taking care of quite a few book orders. She says that 101 is selling better than any other of our books which is great news.

I got my nails done in the afternoon and then went with Sonia and Melissa to “wrap up” the gift buying at Target. I stayed in the car while Sonia and Melissa found great toys for my niece Nyra Rueckert and my nephew Fluke Rueckert.

After Mick and I bathed and had some cuddle time we got together with the group for supper and a quiet evening. Mick offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2009-12-07

December 8, 2009 10:10am

The cold weather continued today, but that did not stop Jim from spending his long afternoon cutting up wild honeysuckle bushes and otherwise clearing vines and grasses from a customer’s back yard. He got a huge amount done, and that comprises about half of his total job.

After morning offering Mick came upstairs with me and he typed in my entries for the Camelot Journal and the Holly Journal very kindly waiting for me to have my chapel time in between the two entries. Things went very smoothly and it is a real pleasure to work with him so easily.

Melissa had asked me to work on the remaining Christmas presents and so I tackled the gift list with an eye to doing as much as I could online and leaving the least possible amount for us to do tomorrow. It was a pleasure to ponder what thoughtful memento might express our love for friends and family. And I did get quite a bit of the remainder of the gifts ordered. Then I organized the remainder of our gift buying by category and emailed that so she would have it tomorrow when she comes in.

Wouldn’t you know it? The one time I get asked to read a lesson at church I’ll be on the road. So I asked Dave R. to read for me, but it turns out that he has just been promoted to the position of General Manager at Border’s Book Store in St. Matthews and is on call 24-7. So I asked Lydia L. instead and got back an immediate OK. I let the church office know to send the lesson to Lydia. I know she will read beautifully, and it felt good to be sure that that was covered in my absence. Steve E., webmaster of B4, wrote suggesting that perhaps he might be able to type my responses to the live chats via telephone. I am enthusiastic about this idea. It should work really well. However, I suggested that we wait to inaugurate this until after my spinal operation. It is a crowded season for everybody from now until the New Year, and it certainly will be crowded for me. He wrote back quickly agreeing to start after the holidays and after my operation and offered to write an announcement to that effect for the site. I thanked him and asked him to go ahead with that.

We had a flurry of phone calls and discussions in-house concerning getting a luggage pod place on top of Stanley Subaru in time for our trip and Jim, the service manager, out of the goodness of his heart, worked us in. Jim and Sonia squeezed in a quick drop-off at noon and by suppertime Stanley was back in the garage with his brand new pod well attached and looking good. We are thrilled to announce that the newly high-topped Subaru fits in the garage with four inches to spare between the top of the pod and the door frame. It should make packing for Nebraska much easier.

Gary was batting away at the L/L inbox all day. He and I sat down before bath time and reviewed what needs to be done, what is on his list, and what is on mine. We agreed that our next priority is to get out a Gatherings Newsletter. Mick and I will create my part of that in Nebraska and send that to Gary who keeps up with the growing number of groups around the world who study the Law of One or meet to offer the Gaia Meditation together. Gary says that Sonia’s help with non-email tasks such as shipping books and stuffing envelopes has helped him greatly, which was good to hear.

Funds are beginning to come in in response to our letter and that is most heart-warming to see, as are the heart-opening comments which accompany the donations. I am so endlessly grateful to be part of L/L Research.

I finished my day by sending a shout out to my MacDuffie classmates by email asking for news so that I can write everybody an update when Jim and I create our Christmas letters for MacDuffie as well as for friends, family, and L/L Research while we are in Nebraska.

After Mick and I bathed and rested together for a while we came down to spend a most enjoyable evening with Sonia. Sonia had made latkas, traditional dishes during the Jewish holidays. And they were good enough to eat for dessert! I offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight. Mick and I closed out our evening by brainstorming key words for Anne Hess’s Youtube video for Miles in London who has offered to add them for us.

2009-12-06

December 7, 2009 9:41am

There was a frost on the fields as Jim took me to church this morning. The service was perfectly beautiful. I love the Advent hymns. The Offertory Anthem we sang was Henry Purcell’s “Rejoice in the Lord Alway” and for Communion we were treated to Josh H’s lovely tenor voice “Every Valley” from Handel’s Messiah.

After lunch and a good nap Mick and I viewed Angels and Demons. I enjoyed the movie a great deal. It was well written and well directed and had an excellent ensemble headed by Tom Hanks who is a chameleon of an actor. Taken on the level of fiction it was a fine mystery and a very generous opportunity to see the scenery of Rome, the eternal city.

There is always the tendency, when looking at the pomp and circumstance of Cardinals and Popes and the mystique of Vatican City to become focused on the robes, the politics, and the surrealism of an organization which clings to dead languages and customs which have all the trappings of myth. However, I thought that the movie did well at walking that fine line between fiction and the supernatural.

My biggest complaint in this very well done movie was the heavy tendency of the music director to employ the Vox Humana stop on the organ and to create musical lines that sound like they came out of Carmina Burana. It is too bad that one more film was graced with this stale, trite musical score rather than exploring the amazingly rich sacred repertoire for likelier offerings.

In the break after our film Jim came upstairs with me to create my journal entries for yesterday. It is incredibly helpful of him.

While Mick went on to several chores I rested having experienced a greater flare-up than yesterday. However, we enjoyed a most pleasant evening and enjoyed thoroughly a corny old TV offering showing stars of the ‘70s singing Christmas carols. Naturally, I was singing along with people like Paul Sorvino and Barbara Eden. Sonia called in from the kitchen to say that this was my karaoke.

We three enjoyed a delightful supper together and Jim offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation.

2009-12-05

December 6, 2009 5:20pm

For the third day now Mick is typing my entries in for me in my journals as both of my shoulders and arms are experiencing nerve pain. Jenny Traveler’s keyboard is significantly smaller than the one he is used to. He has adapted by taking up a spell of juggling before he starts typing as it improves his dexterity and coordination.

We did not have a morning offering today because of the public meditation this evening. After breakfast Mick joined me to write my journals and we had a fairly quick session. Mick is learning fast!

He and I spent the rest of the morning working on the Christmas letter to include with our Christmas cards to Jim’s Lawn Service customers. If we can mail them on Monday morning all of his customers will know how long he will be gone and what help they might ask of him this winter. Mick does a wide range of chores in the off season. He just acquired a snow blower and so his repertoire has increased.

Mick spent his afternoon servicing one of his mowers, putting new chains on his chains saws in anticipation of next week’s work, and worked on our front pond’s waterfall. He also spent the latter part of the afternoon watching football. Meanwhile I noodled around with the JLS Christmas letter until it fit properly with our Christmas stationery and then gave myself over to napping. At 4:30 Steve T. arrived from Illinois to take part in the first Saturday circle channeling session, and he very kindly took me out for a very delicious dinner at the Limestone Restaurant. We came back to a house full of football and joined Jim and Sonia in watching Jim’s alma mater, Florida, loose to Alabama. By 8 o’clock our group had swelled to include Lorena, down from Chicago, Lynn, Walter, Romi, Baykal, Melissa, and Gary. The question for Q’uo this evening had to do with experiencing resistance or frustration—what that was and what one could do in response to it. The channeling circle included Steve, Lorena, Lynn, Jim and myself. I thought that the channeling was very interesting, and I can’t wait to read it when I edit the transcript. It is most gratifying to see these newer channels coming along so well. I offered the Gaia Meditation prayer at the end of the meditation session.

Mick went upstairs to view the Nebraska versus Texas game that he had taped so he could be part of the channeling circle, and the rest of us had a most lively conversation that did not break up until midnight. Mick and I said our last prayers at about 1:30 am. It was certainly an eventful day. And I was most grateful feeling no worse than I had begun it.

2009-12-04

December 5, 2009 9:24am

We had a hard freeze over night, but after Morning Offering intrepid Jim bundled himself up in warm layers and set out to do a final cleanup on eight of his lawn customers. Everything took longer than he thought it would and I did not see his smiling face until full dark. However he had gotten everything done that he set out to do and was a happy man. It does leave some maintenance for the weekend.

My nerve pain situation continued to be severe and mostly I rested today. However, there were a few emails that called out for immediate response. I wrote both my sister-in-law, Mary, and my brother, Tom. When a family member becomes estranged from his wife there is the hope to support both parties. Knowing that Mary already had Christmas plans I invited Tommy here for Christmas and invited Mary and the children for a visit around Derby time when there is an ample schedule of special events to enjoy.

I also wrote Gary to thank him for all the many wonderful things that he has done for me lately and to reassure him of his great value to L/L Research and to me personally. He had undergone some difficult catalyst and I felt validation would be timely. He is, after all, the best admin in the Western world.

I emailed Lorena to ask if she were going to come to our first Saturday channeling circle tomorrow night and, if so, if she were going to stay overnight. Melissa needs to know that because she is in full present-wrapping mode and wants to know how far she can spread out.

The remainder of the work that I did today involved calling around to all the people with whom I had appointments during the time that I will be in Nebraska. I changed appointments for doctors, manicurist, hair cut, and so forth. It took a while to get everybody, but by the end of the day my schedule was cleared from the 9th through the 17th. Now Mick and I can leave town with a clear conscience for some vacation time together.

Mick and I bathed together and then came upstairs for an unbelievably exhilarating date. It is very tempting for us to just go on and on. We are most lucky. After some snuggle time we went down to have supper. Mick offered the closing prayer for the Gaia Meditation tonight.

2009-12-03

December 4, 2009 5:27pm

The day dawned cold, but after morning offering Mick set out to mulch leaves, clean gutters, trim limbs and otherwise be a lawn man. He came home at dust well satisfied but having discovered that our bookkeeper had made a grave error.

She thought it would be a good idea to put reminders on the statements she sent out for last month reminding people who had gotten behind on their payments. However, this is not at all the way Jim chooses to do business. So he was tied up on the phone apologizing to customers for a good part of the evening.

I did my journal entries with Mick’s help, but other than that I rested. We got the good news that my MRI is now scheduled for December 23rd. this news enabled us to plan our trip to Nebraska. We’ll be gone from the 9th to the 18th. So given that this is a challenging time for me I feel very fortunate that I will be able to make that trip and also be able to keep my appointment to teach in Hawaii in January. I imagine that back surgery is in the future when I get back from Hawaii.

The flare-up receded a little bit every hour and by the time Mick and I got our bath and rested for a while I was able to enjoy dinner with Sonia. I offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation.

2009-12-02

December 3, 2009 3:51pm

After Morning Offering the rain prevented Mick from doing his usual work, so he switched into rainy day mode and crossed off a long list of errands. My nerve pain had continued, so I confined my “work” into resting upstairs and then, for a change, resting down stairs. I had a manicure in the afternoon which was a bit more like torture than usual because of a badly ingrown fingernail, but then I got my nail tech to paint my nails a pretty blue and then I was a happy camper.

The only email that was significant today came from Miles in London who was finalizing the DVD of Anna Hess’s interview with me at Homecoming 2009. I suggested to him a short descriptive phrase so that people could find it under several key words such as my name and L/L Research on YouTube. During this time of challenge I am deleting fascinating articles and other emails that I would usually enjoy reading. I am too physically limited to be able to enjoy them right now.

Mick took me to therapy at KORT, from which I emerged with more pain than I had had for more than a month. So the remainder of the day was very quiet. We enjoyed our supper with Sonia and Mick offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight.

My husband, Mi ck, is typing this entry for me and I thank him greatly.

2009-12-01

December 2, 2009 10:08am

After Morning Offering Mick set out to haul away storm debris and fall clean-up for two customers. He and Melissa worked out where along the access road at Avalon the extra debris was needed to breed new soil, and Mick made several trips to dump the debris before dusk.

I passed a very quiet day, resting a good deal and in the late afternoon, dealing with several very hard-sell representatives. Since I am the account owner on most of the things in the house, there are things Gary cannot do.

I will mention only the worst one! She rates as the all-time queen of True Pains—she did not let me off the hook for a solid half-hour as I cancelled my previous Dish TV service. I must have asked to cancel the service six times. It just did not “take”! Selective deafness. I can see why they employ such harassing tactics, since I wanted so badly to hang up on the grief I was getting! And had I at any time lost my temper and hung up, the service would not have been cancelled, and we would owe for another month of a service we are no longer using.

Before she finally said the service was cancelled, I had listened to many minutes of reasons why I might still be charged for the next three months. And I had been darkly warned that I would hate the new ATT-U service and would have to come back to them. I told her that, in that case, perhaps I would have the pleasure of her company again. That finally stopped the flow of invective!

I imagine it was the influence of the full moon tomorrow which caused a real low spot for me today, as I am sensitive to the phases of the moon. It did not last long, but it lets me know that I need to stay on the ball with tuning my attitude to the deeper truth within.

I had some e-mail correspondence with Gary about the fundraising and about a footnote within a recently edited transcript. Ian and I wrote back and forth about grammar in another session and Romi let me know more about our newly ordered computer upgrades. We are not using Office 7 for Word and so forth but are upgrading to Windows 7 as per Romi’s recommendation. The Office 7 does not have any advantages Romi can see over what we have. However he does see a use for Windows 7.

And Monica L wrote me with the good news that our site, B4, has made its first Kangen water processor sale. This is great news, since every Kangen sale the site makes puts a little money away so that I may someday receive a free unit. I cannot afford the water enhancer myself, but eventually, if the store sells enough units, I will be awarded one for free, since Monica kindly put me down as the one who receives the sale bonuses.

Speaking of people not being able to afford things, I would bring to the attention of any who would like to be a special donor that two of our long-faithful prisoner correspondents have asked for books which are not on our list of books free to prisoners, because they are print-on-demand books from lulu.com and we do not stock them. One request is for Dana Redfield’s fine book, The Alphabet Mosaics, and its cost is $25.00 The other request is for Light/Lines—The First Twenty-Five Years. Its cost is $34.00. If you’d like to donate for giving them to these incarcerated seekers, just donate the money through B4 and write Gary a note at contact@llresearch letting him know the intent of the donation, or write a check to L/L Research with that notation on the “for” line and mail it to P O Box 5195, Louisville, KY 40255-0195. Thank you so much fo considering this special request. I know both prisoners through the mails over a decade or more of correspondence and they are good people and serious students, not cons wanting to get something for free to trade for cigarettes.

Romi visited last night but I am embarrassed to say I kept falling asleep on him! We watched President Obama’s address with sad hearts, seeing the war go on and on for more time now. I know Obama inherited an awful mess in the Middle East. I guess I must take it on faith that he is doing his best to clean it up as fast as he can.

We all dined together, Gary, Romi, Sonia, Jim and I, on Sonia’s delicious Thanksgiving leftovers. Romi offered the closing prayer at the Gaia Meditation.

December, 2009

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