Carla’s Niche

Camelot Journal

Copyright © 2006 Carla L. Rueckert

Tuesday, May 2, 2006

Scuffing through the last of the fluffy clots of maple pollen and the first of the brand new maple leaves that our trees drop very early each year, I got the paper in, enjoying the glory of the day. It had rained overnight and everything felt gloriously happy and green. After Morning Offering, Jim left to garden in the wet and mow after the sun had dried out the neighborhood. I turned to thoughts of LOO 101 through 103.

Bruce had written to say that 103, or Book Three, was giving him fits as he tried to address the topics slotted for that last and final volume. They are all the yummy topics like meditation, visualization, prayer and contemplation that I love to write about the most. He said that the workbook idea was not a good one because it sounds like work.

So I took my old outline and addressed each point slotted for 103, thinking of various ways to look at these topics. I suggested that we look at them as the metaphysical equivalent of football boot camp, these being the exercises you use to strengthen muscles of a different sort than football uses.

The writing took me most of the morning, and constituted all I could do on the book project for the day. I decided to address my Inbox next, as it had grown alarmingly.

I addressed a translation question or three from Terry H, who is translating LOO into Chinese. He is on Book IV now! His Book III translation also just arrived at our library, all printed up. The books are much slimmer in Chinese characters than in written English!

I spent some thoughtful time preparing a response to Selcan T, who wishes to learn channeling. I do intend to teach this once more at least, and am keying that effort to when Steve T. retires from teaching and moves to Louisville. He is the best channeling student besides Jim McCarty I ever had and he wishes to work further after he is moved. This plan keeps getting pushed back because his kids both went to graduate school through to the doctorate and neither one has made it yet, so he keeps paying very large educational bills plus their living costs. One day, though, he hopes to get through with that, move here and study channeling.

However, Selcan is motivated to learn because of a psychic reading where she was told she “should” learn to channel. That does not work for me at all. I explained that it is such an enormous decision, affecting the entire lifetime experience decisively and transformationally, that one must come to the study knowing that one wants this huge change. I gave her a good bit of information all at once but she is a very serious student of the LOO materials and I knew that she would use it very well in thinking about this.

I responded to personal e-mail from friends, made luncheon appointments with a couple of girlfriends for later in the month, had lunch alone as far as today goes and headed out to a doctor’s appointment for my broken ankle. The doctor said it was coming along OK. He explained that I had sustained a double sprain in addition to the chipped bone, which was why I had continued to feel so much discomfort and why I was still needing to use the frozen peas to ice down the joint. He gave me a sheet of exercises to do to strengthen the ankle, of which I was very glad. That should help me to build the ankle back up. Right now it still wants to turn over again and so I am still in a brace.

When I returned, Gary had a few questions for me, doing admin work for L/L, and we squared away some details before he went off to make L/L telephone calls and I headed upstairs. I found waiting for me a marvelous letter from Bruce. He had been utterly inspired by an odd synchronicity involving mice who love to chew on the material that insulates wires that carry electrical current. They had cleverly chewed through a wire in his truck’s engine and the resulting short blew out one of his spark plugs and the vehicle died. He was a few hundred feet from a repair station, as luck would have it, and rolled in to the lot, where, surprisingly, the mechanics beckoned him to roll right into the bay. He said they’d just finished the last job of the day and could take him right away.

It took about two hours for the repair work to occur and meanwhile Bruce was talking with Joe and Maggie, Ed and Ethel, the repairman, his wife, his assistant and his wife. That conversation got Bruce back on track completely at seeing how to talk about these resources in the 103 book, such as meditation, with the fictional readers of this book, whom Bruce and I have been calling Joe and Molly Blow. Well, now it will be Joe and Maggie Blow, plus Ed and Ethel! He promised me a new outline for 103 soon! My heart soared to hear this. Bruce’s insights into how to make this project work well have been invaluable. He has taken care to include every one of my topic points, not destroying or altering my material but very carefully rearranging it so it will work better. He has opened it up by moving from one volume to three.

I spent most of the remainder of this unusually long working afternoon with an e-mail from Jeremy on B4 issues. I found myself floundering because of a lack of technical knowledge. Words like podcasting and analog go right over my head. Jeremy and all the rest of the crew who are working on the concept and development of B4 will be talking for a while, I think! It is time to go slowly enough to think and talk things through as we go for more clarity in the development of www.bring4th.org.

Jim finally called at 7 PM to declare himself on the road home at last. I just had time to write Paul C., who was working on how to arrange his time here—he will come for extra time around the Homecoming and do volunteer work here on the L/L DVD project—and to write Andy B., who had written in with a question for us to ask the Q’uo at our next channeling session.

Jim and I had a whirlpool and by 8 PM were ensconced in front of the TV, enjoying a CSI episode, some wonderful rest and each other. Hearing Romi come in, we went downstairs to greet him. He was working most of the rest of the evening to restore our printers. When he left, Brother Sam and my upstairs printer were both on line. Only Jessica, our sulky big color printer, was still on the fritz.

Gary offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation. We all watched an episode of House and had a late supper. Jim and I said good night to Gary and the Ro Man around 11 PM and left them to their conversation. Mick and I and the kitties had a lovely snuggle before parting for the night at midnight.

Wednesday, May 3, 2006

The honeysuckle bushes were in full bloom this morning, smelling sweet and so pretty to see. I awoke late and barely got washed up before Jim’s and my day began. After Morning Offering I got the Camelot Journal entry posted and turned to writing an article on marriage for UPI, as my weekly deadline is today at noon. I found a couple of really nice Q’uotes about the covenant aspect of marriage. By the end of the afternoon Larry, my editor, had written to say that he enjoyed the piece to the point where he posted it on the main UPI page which offers a teaser to the Religion and Spirituality section.

Then I turned to Bruce’s question about how long the pieces on each topic would run in the Choice books. I told him we would figure out how much writing was in my budget for each topic and then write to that budget.

I had greeted Melissa as I went upstairs, early in the morning, to start work. By the time I came down to lunch she was already finished! Now, that is fast! And every statement was done, every bill, paid; all the receipt envelopes, empty. It makes me wonder what the heck Dottie was doing! Conclusion: Melissa is a whiz! So is Gary. He and I talked a bit today as he wanted to explore the media transfer project a bit with me before writing another round of letters to the rest of the crew.

My main activity for the afternoon, besides taking the kittens to the vet for their last kitten shots, was to edit the speech Steve Tyman gave on the archetype of Transformation at Wooded Glen last August. I sent it off to him with a request to read it through and send it back to me corrected so I could send it on to Jeremy. It was truly worth reading/hearing again. I am very glad we have established the Wooded Glen niche as I think very good things went on during that weekend that might prove helpful for our readers in their seeking.

Jeremy, Tobey, Gary and Ian have been having a detailed conversation about the media transfer project. They have decided to start with the original Law of One sessions and get them safely copied to discs. They are now talking about just how to do that. I believe the plan is to purchase a CD recorder and do the work here. It is a finicky task and I am grateful the technical experts are taking very good care to do this correctly.

Jeremy and I continued our conversation on B4 and also on ways to create an income stream for L/L Research. We have never had a coherent plan for that. When a book needed printing, we would write our mailing list and ask for help. That was the extent of our plan. So we agreed to think about this and put some priority on creating an overall plan for financial stability.

I finished up the afternoon with some personal e-mail, working late because my faithful husband was also working late. He had been soft-hearted, after a very full day’s work, and mown an extra yard. A neighbor of his last customer’s came to him as he was finishing up there and appealed to him. Her husband is sick and cannot mow. And he so loves their yard! So Jim took that on and got their yard mowed too. Now that is living the Law of One! Jim’s open heart is a beautiful thing to behold.

We barely had time to have our bath and get dressed again before it was time for choir practice. There, we practiced ten minutes for next Sunday’s music and spent the rest of the time practicing for the concert in DC. It went pretty well. I just made it home for the Gaia Meditation, then a late supper and some conversation and TV to coax us to sleep.

Thursday, May 4, 2006

My first thought this morning was for my buddy, Dana R, in Utah, who has a diagnosis of cancer and must undergo a big, hairy test today, prior to having an operation to biopsy the suspected mass tomorrow. I offered prayers and sent her an e-note to encourage her on through this. Then I wrote the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday and came downstairs to greet Jim and the cats.

After Morning Offering Jim headed out for a very full day’s work. I greeted Melissa, who came to pursue the ironing out of our QuickBooks, which she is rescuing from deep imbalances little by little, and headed upstairs to find Bruce’s most welcome outline of 103. I spent about an hour looking through that before deciding that I needed to address some pressing e-mail.

There was a big round of letters about the CD recorder issue. There is a lot of pressure to get one, get it now and press forward. However I know that Jim, Gary and I are universally dim on tech stuff. Romi might be able to handle things well, but such equipment is not in his area of expertise as it is not a computer. I am therefore urging the slowing down of this. Patience is often the answer, I think, as our hopes for the project are substantial. But we really must get it set up correctly. I wrote five e-mails on this to various people.

Late in the afternoon I got a call from Ian on this very matter. He was in agreement with me and encouraged me to keep the project on hold until we had done a good deal more research and thought through how to do what, when, where and so forth. He says after we have worked things all out he will be glad to get on the telephone with Romi and help him with the installation.

Jim came home early for lunch, which worked well because I needed to eat early too. I needed to sing for a funeral at 12:30. We offered Ave Verum and sang a group of hymns which I had never seen before. I am told they were Baptist hymns. They were very spirited, especially Beulah Land. You can tell the hymns were written for a whole different sensibility—one which sings louder! There’s a lot of gusto in those hymns.

It was a beautiful, green world through which I drove the two blocks to St. Luke’s. The leaves are fully unfurled now and the sunlight slanting through our Anchorage forest is something to behold. I enjoyed the memorial service. It was long and I did not know the deceased personally—singing for funerals is something choir members just do. But his had been a long and service-filled life and one with many good friends, beloved family and happy times. Junie had been very successful and turned his wealth around into good works. He had a great sense of humor and his family adored the man. Their tributes brought tears to my eyes. After retirement he took up fox hunting, so the end of the homily was “Tally Ho!”

Back home, I sat down with Melissa again for some problem solving. Melissa is doing wonders at getting our office in good shape. We worked out some details on changes in filing. I signed checks, moved money and in general caught up with the financial end of things.

My ankle was not comfortable and I decided to rest it for a little while. Off to sleep I slipped, so I lost the chance to work further on anything today. Ian’s call woke me and then Jim called me to bath time. We had a comforting whirlpool during which Dan and Chloe finally managed to jump up on the edge of the tub and peer down into the waters. They wrote the book on cute! I think that’s their last unknown territory explored. They have gotten much larger very quickly!

Amy Goodman’s news was especially riveting tonight. She had two women on the show who had been detained for deportation from the USA. Both of them had lived in the US since they were children, coming in at 4 and 6 years old. Both had married American men. Both had one American parent and were, therefore, American citizens on that account. One had a baby and usually that also qualifies one for a “green card” so the Mom can be with the child.

However both of their parents had received deportation notices on behalf of them as children at ages 12 and 16. The women themselves had not even known about these notices, being kids at the time. Their parents had disregarded the notices, probably assuming they were mistakes. Both women had led completely blameless, crime-free lives. One had a toddler at home. To top the injustice off, both had endured abuse in prison. One of them was not even allowed a lawyer to help her extricate herself from the morass.

This is what Homeland Security is up to. As Jim said, “I feel safer knowing these dangerous women have been taken into custody.”

We have become a nation of hoodlums. It is not at all pretty to see.

Gary treated us at dinner time to a killing take off and roast of President Bush at the White House Correspondents’ Press Dinner. The well-reasoned comments were telling and Jim and I enjoyed the speech mightily.

I offered the prayer at the Gaia Meditation. We had a late supper and came upstairs for an evening snuggle, saying good night around 11 PM.

Friday, May 5, 2006

Getting the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday finished, I spent a bit of time in my closet, organizing my summer clothes, before descending for the day. There’s more to do there! Ah, vanity!

After Morning Offering Jim and Gary went to work for the big Friday mowing melee and I went upstairs to work with creating a unified and edited outline of all three Choice books, armed with Bruce’s suggestions and comments and my own original work.

When I surfaced some hours later I felt that it was a great first draft and e-mailed it off to Bruce.

Jim and I were able to have lunch together today and stretch, a real treat for me.

When I was through with the outline I decided to tackle a big pile of papers by my desk. I volunteered to pour for a wine-tasting fund raiser at St. Luke’s which will benefit the choir’s trip to DC. I got a press pass for the Jazz Factory for tonight. I entered into a long conversation trying to remove an excess charge from my credit card. The snooty company said they must see a copy of all paperwork. It took her a half an hour to find a record of the sale. She said she was sure I was telling the truth. There’s a vote of confidence.

Jeremy had asked for a copy of L/L Research’s Charter and I e-mailed Melissa to find out if she has made digital copies of that necessary legal paperwork. She and Vara had talked about doing so last year but I could not find the work. We had more discussion on the CD recorder purchase. Neither Romi nor Ian feels it is a good idea to buy one until we have a very clear idea of how we will proceed once we get it. This kind of sensible caution is good, I think. I thought I had cleared all the jotted notes and papers finally, then when I was straightening up to go downstairs and bathe I found a couple of my notes to myself where the kittens had dragged them, under the chair. So I have more details to see to, tomorrow.

Jim and Gary came home, all the week’s mowing completed, tired and happy. Jim and I cleaned up, enjoying the kittens’ antics as they played along the rim of the big tub, and went to the Jazz Factory for a delightful set with the Don Braden Quartet. We did the Gaia Meditation there, had a wonderful supper and great sounds. Not one of the four players, however, was willing to talk with me or share their e-mail for a jazz story. No story there …

We came home full of good food and music and went to bed about midnight.

Saturday, May 6, 2006

Derby Day in Louisville can be cold and gray and such weather was predicted. However for this year, the day turned out to be picture-perfect, a day in Eden. Like good locals, Jim and I stayed home and watched the race on TV.

I wrote the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday before joining Jim and rising for the day. After Morning Offering Jim began his morning of cooking and errands while I opened up the Book of Days and spent the day, off and on, editing it. By bath time I had made it the second time through to Day 170. It is good to have some time to work on this sweet material. I had done a rough edit on Days 1 through about 230 before discussing the project with Ian and realizing that once he gets my edit, he does not want me to have another editing read of it. He wants the draft I send him to be my final one.

So I started over, reading through for a second time to be absolutely sure I had caught everything I wanted to change. I am very glad I did, as I have found quite a bit to amend.

During the day I also e-mailed back and forth with Bruce about the outline. He is still working with my draft of the unified outline for all three Choice books.

Gary and I sat down in the afternoon and got some business finished having to do with changing my name on my credit cards. For years I have been Carla L. Rueckert as a writer and Carla L. McCarty as a married lady. Some of my ID was one way and the rest was the other. After a trip to Britain last year in which Vara and I were delayed long spells at check points while the riddle was worked out by successive numbers of agents and helpers, I vowed to unify my ID. How apt for a person who loves to talk about the Law of One, eh?

Gary had gotten some of the cards notified successfully but he needed my help with others which would only receive information from me. So we made some calls and got that worked through. It’s a picky business but hopefully it will help me in the future when I fly or otherwise have to have my ID checked.

It seems that a wine tasting fund-raiser at St. Luke’s does need me as a pourer, so I committed to volunteering for that. Next Saturday I shall be pouring.

Jim did all sorts of errands and polished off the weeding of the entire yard—a massive effort—plus weed-eating all the pathways and blowing all the areas clear of debris. We walked around the yard in the early evening, after our bath, in a glow of quiet contentment. The wandering blue geranium Jim brought from Nebraska is out now and the new azalea bushes we planted last year at the cross-shaped patio are glorious. The dogwoods haw finished raining their white petals down and are suddenly in full leaf. Several of our hostas have taken off and are just immense already! Everything looks and feels so alive and green! This is an incredible time of year indeed.

Naturally we took in the Derby, armed with popcorn. Jim, who is fond of Steppenwolf, the rock group, was cheering for Steppenwolfer, who came in third. I was rooting for a horse named after a saint and he wandered off to Indiana, I think, never again to be heard from. Barbaro won the day.

Gary, Jim and I offered the Gaia Meditation and had a late supper, and so we toddled happily off to bed.

Sunday, May 7, 2006

Awakened early by the noble Pickwick, our older marmalade tabby, I started the Sabbath by editing on the Book of Days and writing the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday. After our decadent donut breakfast, always a special Sunday treat for us, Jim got to his cleaning and I got to church to sing the service.

We had lunch together and then Jim took a nap while I practiced my music and then worked more on the Book of Days, editing through Day 200. I responded to a note from my UPI editor on next week’s column and on Hitler, which subject he is reading up on. I sent him some Hitler quotes from our material. I also caught up with Mark H, who wrote to ask about our DVD project, to let him know about the 2006 Homecoming over Labor Day weekend. He has expressed the desire to film us next time we gather. Then I wrote Doug M, a fellow choir member at St. Luke’s, addressing a concern he had confided in me.

Romi and Bruce both came around 2 PM to work on the set-up for the live session. Soon the place was bristling with microphones and wires. Dan and Chloe went bonkers at the rich array of new toys and unfortunately, Bruce’s bare feet were also designated targets of opportunity for busy kittens. There was much laughter at their antics and an occasional heart-felt OUCH! That was the toes being attacked!

Melissa came early also, in order to work on the projects she has going in the office. This most unusual woman does the books for us on Wednesday, then comes back and volunteers many hours of her time just to get the books and the office in fair shape at last. We have grown, both in Jim’s lawn business and in L/L Research, and we’ve been playing QuickBooks catch-up for a couple of years now. Thanks to Melissa I think we’ll be in ship-shape condition soon.

The five of us, plus Connie M, who drove in from 90 minutes up in Indiana, began the public meeting and talked around the circle. We have all been under fire recently with equipment breaking, body dramas and other things, but all were in good spirits and we enjoyed the round-robin discussion. Then I went to tune for the channeling and Romi and Bruce got the extended listeners group ready on line. The meditation itself began about 5:30. We had a group question from the local group and a group question from the non-local group, who had been working for a couple of days on our forum to come up with one group question. Then we had a question from Andy B and one from Parnell S. Bruce also asked a follow-up and Eccles P. had a question. The material ranged from health and illness to many other subjects. It should be a fascinating session to edit. I look forward to it.

Romi took down the array of wires and mikes and then make his famed love tea, which we all greatly enjoyed along with Connie’s cookies and Jim’s birthday cake, which he offered to the group. Bruce continued to talk to the people in the still-open chat room while Connie offered me a sumptuous Reiki session. She had made me a wonderful aquamarine ankle bracelet to help with my left ankle and I found it immediately efficacious. The relief was so welcome!

We all dined on Jim’s and Gary’s new food and Gary got home from Cracker Barrel work in time to join in the feast with us. We had the Gaia Meditation with Jim offering the prayer and then Connie offered a Reiki session to Bruce also.

The conversation broke up about 10 PM and Jim and I came upstairs to laze away the remainder of the evening, saying good night about 11 PM.

Monday, May 8, 2006

I wrote the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday but the internet access was balky and I could not post it until later in the morning. I’ll need to let Jeremy know that the site is very slow to load for some reason. Jim and I had a snuggle before Morning Offering and then he was off for his biggest day of the week, except Friday, for mowing.

I found quite a load of concerns in the e-mail this morning and decided to tackle them before getting to editing on the Book of Days. Ian had asked for a better title for one of my letter tapes than “Conversation” and was hoping I would recall to whom Jim and I were speaking in 1987 about meditation techniques. However that hope was false as my memory produced nothing useful, no names or faces. We have talked to many, many people in the course of several decades! I suggested “Conversation about Meditation.”

Ian also was thinking further on a project of his to create books of the year’s L/L Research channeling sessions. He has started with 2005 and he sent me the PDF of the entire year. I thought it looked very handsome. Ian’s wife is a writer and she uses Blitzprint, a print-on-demand printer which charges an extremely reasonable fee for doing small runs, considering what other firms charge here in the States—Blitzprint is a Canadian company. I told him to go ahead with this as I believe it will be a product people will appreciate. He suggested we sell the volumes for $30.00, which is not at all bad for a limited edition.

I wrote Paul C to finalize arrangements for his volunteering some time at Camelot later this summer, working on the L/L Research DVD project, around the time of the Labor Day Homecoming. He also caught me up on news of Jon G. Due to Jon’s relative being suddenly quite ill, he is away from home and cannot send to Paul the remaining Wooded Glen CD sound dubs for Paul to transcribe. So we are on hold there again. We will be lucky to have the Wooded Glen speeches complete by our next Homecoming! Still, as the speeches have come in, I think it’s worth it to wait for them as they are interesting material and hopefully useful to seekers.

I got back from Steve T. his edited version of the speech I had sent him for correction, but I could not open it. SO I appealed to him to try a cut-and-paste version, which he promptly did. Success! I checked it over and sent it on to Jeremy to add to the Wooded Glen niche.

Selcan had written saying that she had decided not to try to learn channeling now as she had read over my thoughts on the subject and had realized that without a good support group, she could not sustain her work after she finished learning from me and our group here. She suggested that, instead, she translate the Law of One, Book Five into Turkish. The first four volumes have already been translated and published by another anonymous and kind Turkish soul. I assured her that if she got stuck on translation problems I would be glad to help, as I do with Terry Hsu’s translation work. He is rendering the LOO material into Chinese.

I got the charter material on L/L Research together and snail-mailed that off to Jeremy, who wishes to understand how L/L Research is set up as a non=profit charity. The Articles of Incorporation and By-Laws were xeroxed and Melissa found the papers that indicate our very favorable IRS status. Jeremy is also looking into grant writing on behalf of L/L and Melissa sent him the material she had researched on that last year.

I wrote Steve J, my osteopath and a bio-dynamic farmer as well, to let him know that Peter B, a professional farmer who works now at the bio-dynamic Plaw Hatch Farm in Sussex, and is the husband of Pupak H-B, my beloved student, has agreed to come here in 2007 to volunteer at Avalon. Steve’s friends have a good deal of research funds available at this time and I am hoping to secure Peter a grant for some research on Avalon.

I answered some translation questions which Terry H sent in concerning Session 78. He is coming right along with Book Four! I am so proud of him for persevering. To tackle such a translation job is immense work and takes real grit. Especially when the prose you are trying to translate is the Ra group’s difficult wording and phrasing.

I got exactly one reading or Day done on the Book of Days before Bruce showed up. I had promised him a sumptuous meal to thank him for working so hard on the outline for the Choice series and we took off to eat at his favorite place, Hometown Buffet. We got some groceries for him to take back to Avalon and did Mother’s Day shopping before returning here. Bruce took off to return to Avalon and I got back to the Book of Days.

I finished reading Day 220 by the time Jim called bath time. I am so glad I decided to do this second read-through before releasing the manuscript back to Ian. I continue to find various errata and it feels good to be cleaning this piece up as well as I can. It, too, is slated for printing with Blitzprint when it is finished. It will be wonderful to have some new publications coming out. The Book of Days is an especially endearing work which I think many will enjoy as a daily companion.

Jim and I enjoyed a relaxing evening, watching Amy Goodman’s news and then taking in Stargate, Stargate Atlantis and CSI episodes while chatting about our day. We shared the Gaia Meditation, with me offering the prayer, and then came upstairs, saying good night about 11 PM.

Tuesday, May 9, 2006

Waking to a blissfully sunny and cool day, I wrote the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday and woke St. James to start the day. We had our Morning Offering and he was off for the whole day—no shared lunch today, worse luck for me. Here we are married almost 19 years and I miss the man if I don’t get to see him for lunch.

My two big goals for the day were to write the UPI article for tomorrow’s deadline and to get the Mother’s Day cards and present to Mom McCarty wrapped, signed and sent. I really struggled with the article as my editor had asked me to write about enemy thinking. I tried to do that without stepping on the feet of conservatives who may well feel our leaders are doing The Right Thing. However I was unable to produce a good article without getting specific. I eventually sent the article in as it was, political opinion sprouting from every paragraph. Larry liked the piece. I was not so thrilled with it, but it does reflect what I honestly think. I was disappointed in myself for not being defter.

I got the present for Mom wrapped and Jim mailed it and the cards off for me on his travels. I also got a big order in to amazon.com, as Jim and I just last night picked out several artists from the Link TV’s World Music program which he wished to listen to on his iPod. I found all the artists but one. Aidoku does not have a CD out. One can download individual songs that they have made videos of, but that’s not what Mick wants. I found everything else. He will have a good birthday this year! That comes up tomorrow!

I decided to clear the desk and Inbox before returning to the Book of Days editing. Here’s the list:

• Wrote to Jeremy about the Wooded Glen niche and also the DVD project.
• Let Bruce know it is OK for utility linemen to gain access to the Avalon property for their work.
• Sympathized with my neighbor, Calvin, who must miss choir rehearsal tomorrow.
• Figured out a missing word in a letter Ian was editing for the Carla’s Letters section of the Library on llresearch.org—it was “diocese.”
• Corresponded with Melissa on grant writing materials and also on Peter and Pupak’s hopes for a grant in bio-dynamic farming on Avalon for 2007.
• Thanked Selcan for sending me a gorgeous photo tour of Istanbul.
• Created a new admin projects list for admin Gary.
• Wrote Connie a thank you note for the beautiful aquamarine ankle bracelet she made to help my left ankle heal.
• Responded to Bruce’s concern that Mother Earth is distressed with a synchronistic reading from the Book of Days. We will read that short piece each evening while Bruce continues to sense that Gaia needs special love and attention.

That reading goes as follows and I offer it to any of you who may have the same concerns or be picking up on the same psychic information.

It is a strong reading, but I like the way it turns the mind from worry to peace. We’ll be using that for a while at the 9 PM meditations.

I turned back to editing in the late afternoon and edited through to day 260 before bath time.

Romi came over and worked to clear some computer problems that were largely due to having a network and using a router. He also got my printer working again, which is a true boon! We had a good conversation about all that is occurring at L/L right now. Romi’s opinions are always very practical and helpful and I enjoyed the discussion very much.

We shared a late supper after the Gaia Meditation and watched an episode of House together before breaking up for the night and wishing each other good night. Jim and I snuggled and dozed until 11 PM and so to bed.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

After finishing the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday I went downstairs armed with a big birthday card for my Mick. His Earth Day is today. We had a snuggle and Morning Offering and then he was off to try to beat the rain and get his gardening done. He knew the rain was coming and mowed ahead for today, but he was hoping to cram in some gardening jobs for special clients in the drizzle.

I went down to the basement to wrap Jim’s presents. I have been collecting them for a while now but had not gotten around to putting the pretty paper on theme. I had to write little notes for the five music CDs and books that were not yet in from amazon.com, but that was easily done and the resulting pile of goodies looked inviting!

Ian asked for a home page clean-up on www.llresearch.org and after commiserating once again with Calvin for her inability to sing with St. Luke’s choir for a couple of weeks I got into that. We have a lot going on now at L/L and I suggested that we use links to explanations of things on the home page rather than the explanations themselves being on the Home Page. There were some back and forth conversations during the day and by the end of the day Ian had a complete new look which seemed much improved to me.

Larry, my UPI editor, wrote to tell me he liked my column on enemy thinking and to ask me what I would do for next week. I have not yet decided. The topics he has asked for include pornography and The Fall. What a choice!

I spent some time writing Dana R, whose latest cancer diagnosis has made her feel down-pin indeed. I do not believe diagnoses are necessarily right and wrote to say that. On the other hand I do not think it a failure or a terrible thing to die. We all will die at some point. So I think it is good to take a balanced view, embracing both alternatives. We talked a couple of times during the day.

After lunch I wrote the Hays, who are funding the writing of this book, about the Choice books. The last they knew I was writing ONE book and was on Chapter One. Then they did not hear anything for a while. So I filled them in on what Bruce and I had been doing and sent them the rough draft of the unified outline for all three books.

Patrick S. called from the tax preparer’s office to ask many questions, most of which I could not answer, about L/L Research and what Jim had filed in past years. Jim is not a great bookkeeper. He has faithfully filed, even though we do not have to as we do not generally receive enough donations, each and every year we have been in business officially, from 1978 onwards. His form 990s never balance. That’s just the way it is with Mick! It is so obvious that he is being totally honest that the IRS has never questioned his returns. However now that the taxes are all being prepared by Compton Kottke, they want to get the forms to balance.

I ended up passing the call to Melissa, who handled it all well. She later said that she has agreed to send Patrick all our paper records by fax for the last few years. That is a huge amount of work for her and I truly wish it were not needed. It does not seem to me so crucial to make prior years right. I would far rather just go on from here and get the present form 990 right. However Patrick explained to Melissa that accountants have a responsibility to go back and fix things when they find them amiss. Since we owe no taxes, being non-profit, and since we have done absolutely nothing wrong except get faulty figures for what we don’t owe taxes on, I don’t get it. But I am not an accountant,

Romi had asked me to write out a list of the most common woes we have with the computers. I did that and sent it off. He is going to create a trouble shooting manual for us. What a good idea!

Melissa came up to give me her weekly report and we arranged for next week’s work and had a great planning session before she left for the day.

I finally opened the Book of Days and edited through to Day 273 before Jim came home, rained out at last, around 4 PM, having finished everything he wished to do—Yay, Mick. I quit work for the day early and we had the Grand Present Opening, which was fun. I had gotten Mick some Solitude head phones and an iPod carrying case which hangs from the belt as his main presents. He loves that iPod and listens to it as he mows, so he was easy to please this year. Better headphones, a better way to carry the gadget and some good music CDs formed a large part of his presents. I also found him some goodies for the garden including two little toad homes for him which came all the way from Britain, made of earthenware. They are quite practical as well being attractive, forming a good habitat for the little amphibians who clean up an amazing number of insects all summer long.

After our whirlpool and the kittens’ show—they have formed the habit of sitting on the edge of the tub and contentedly watching us wash up—I was off to St. Luke’s for a planning meeting on the trip to DC and then choir practice. I got home in time for the Gaia Meditation, with Jim praying, and then we had a late supper and an early bedtime snuggle, saying good night before 11 PM.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

After the Morning Offering Jim got started on some honey-do work for me, re-hanging the mirror and pictures over the mantel in the office where Vara had previously had her sword and tiger picture, because the rain kept him from mowing. I came up, wrote the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday and started on editing the Book of Days. By the time I stopped for the day I had edited through Day 350, so there is not much left to do on the first document, which has 365 Days. I am excited to be coming along with this so well.

I also had the real treat of lunching with Dianne S. She donated generously towards the printing of the Book of Days, which greatly lifted my heart as we have a matching donor for that project, so any funds we get for the printing will be doubled by him. There was a terrific feeling of this project coming together!

In between things I responded to some e-mail. Melissa and I were talking about making a new order form and re-doing the price list. Books cost us way more than they used to but we have been charging the same prices for about a decade. I made some suggestions for changes in the prices to reflect what the books cost us.

I also talked with Melissa about our PayPal account. She had completely redone all the passwords and personnel to reflect our current situation. None of this affects the customer trying to use PayPal but hopefully we won’t be so terminally confused after her changes get registered. The PayPal feature is very helpful to small groups like ours because it features a secure site where people can trust that their credit card numbers will not be exposed to theft. In and of themselves, our sites are not secure.

Ian and I talked a couple of times about matters relating to the book he is creating of our 2005 channeling sessions. We created a notice page and discussed whether or not to create yearly volumes going back before 2001, when I first started to edit the transcripts as they came in.

I am leery of offering published work that I have not edited as many words in transcripts I have not seen are usually misheard or unknown and the resulting reading is rough. I do not have the time to go back and edit the 100+ old transcripts which I have not yet worked with. Ian’s point is that it is research material and is about 90 to 95% clean, which is good for such material. I shall need to ponder that point of view.

I wrote Dana and Bruce, both of whom are going through some physical difficulties at present, to keep up with what’s going on with them. They are both doing splendidly. Dana just signed a movie deal for her book, Ezekiel’s Chariot!

Jim, finally able to work at his mowing in the afternoon, worked until after 8 PM to finish his jobs, so I went out with our old friends, Linnie and Larry. Believe it or not, we were celebrating Christmas. Ever since the early ‘70s we gathered at Don’s Aunt Tot’s each Christmas. Tot considered Linnie and me her honorary daughters. After Tot died three years ago we continued the tradition of gathering at Christmas. The first year we met at New Year’s. The second year we met at Valentine’s Day. This year it took until May to form a plan! We decided to go for the Fourth of July next year!

Jim and Gary did the Gaia Meditation without me as I returned home about 10 PM. Jim and I came upstairs and had a good snuggle before saying good night around 11.

Friday, May 12, 2006

I wrote the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday before joining Mick for a snuggle and the Morning Offering. Then Jim and Gary were off to mow seven yards and garden in three of them before the rains came.

I came up to the office to finish the document holding the first 365 Days of the Book of Days channeling and sent it off to Ian. Ah, that felt good! I wrote a good bit about the book’s production as well. It felt wonderfully celebratory.

I e-mailed Tobey responding to a request he, Steve T. and Terry H. have for a question on the original Yahweh. I asked all of them to develop a final form for the question. We have until the 28th, three Sundays from now, for them to do that since I will not be here to channel on the third Sunday of this month but in Washington DC, singing at the National Cathedral with my choir.

I wrote both Ian and Jeremy to let them know that Melissa’s sending them PayPal information does not mean they must do something now but only that she straightened out the account and was letting them know what access they had as web guys.

Melissa had e-mailed me concerning setting up a fund and account just for printing the Book of Days. I suggested to her that instead of specifying the account as a Book of Days printing fund she call the fund a Printing Fund, so that any money left over from one print project can be used in that same account for other such printing projects. We have a whole line of potential books in the pipe right now.

Then it was time to drive about 30 miles southeast to Shelbyville, Kentucky, where my ex-mother-in-law, Mom DeWitt, lives now, in a nursing home. I took along our latest photo albums and we shared lunch and a couple of hours of conversation and memories. We have always had such a good time together. Mom is 94 now and I am so glad I can still spend some time with her.

After I returned, Melissa and I sat down and finalized the new T-shirt order. We will have new colors and styles. The tees are a good fund raiser and it is great to get a new supply of them in, in good time for offering at the Homecoming. The colors will be black, royal blue and a nice deep red for the regular tees and a couple of really pretty colors—I am not remembering which two made the cut—for the women’s tees, which are cut more to the body and with a shorter sleeve and tail.

Then I came back up here to my little aerie office, with the late afternoon sun slanting through the sea of leaves out my bank of four windows, and started in on the next Book of Days document, which contains Days 365 through 466. By the time Jim called bath time I had gotten a fair number of the Days titled and charted in my Table of Days and Dates. The channelings span several years and my interest in making this chart is to see where each Day’s date falls. If possible I would like to use this material as close to the date it was channeled as possible. My channeling tends to be sensitive to the cycles of the year, both in nature and in the church year, so it makes sense to keep the readings oriented to the actual dates—not the years but the days - they were collected.

I am finding, so far, that some periods have lots of channelings and some have none. Christmas, for instance, has none for the 25th of December, which is fairly predictable! However, there is enough coverage already that we can place very relevant readings in all blank dates.

Mick and I were joined by Romi after our bath and we had a sweet evening of conversation, the Gaia Meditation with Romi offering the prayer and a late supper. We broke up to seek our beds at 11 PM. Jim and I stretched that wonderful TGIF feeling until about midnight.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Ah, Saturday! Jim does not need to mow, usually, on the weekend and so we are able to sleep in and rise later which is a total treat for us.

After Morning Offering Jim got to cooking and I came up to work on a thoughtful letter to Ian about the Book of Days project. He was talking about how to arrange the format, what information to include in each reading and how he might clean up the second Days document which holds, I believe, Days 366 through 451. It’s a mess right now.

Ian would also like to see a few examples of Jo Weber’s drawings. I had assumed that he would not want to fool with producing them as part of the printed Book of Days and, instead, would prefer to include them in an eventual Book of Days niche on site where all the Days would be included, plus Jo’s art. But apparently he wishes to see the drawings before deciding that. This will be a challenge as I have never learned to use the scanning feature of my printer. And then there’s the puzzle of where Jim has archived the drawings. I shall have a learning curve on that task!

I really feel that the printed BOD will be the better for not including the drawings, elegant as the black ink drawings are in their simplicity. Jo was an internationally known artist who loved the LOO material and corresponded with us a good deal in the ‘80s. When she saw the BOD readings she was enchanted by them and decided to draw illustrations for each Day. She had gotten about 200 of them done when she passed through the gates of larger life. So we do not have a drawing for each day. For years I have asked around to find if another artist would be interested in completing the drawings that she began but so far no one has had the response Jo did to the material.

If we used her drawings, our little devotional book would swell from 366 pages to 566 pages. So I imagine we will print the book with the text of the readings but no drawings.

Bruce wrote to let us know that Avalon was ponding in the meadow, so Jim changed his plans—he was going to drive up and mow the meadow this afternoon—and instead he spent the afternoon chipping and shredding lots of storm debris which he had cleared from his customers’ yards. He then mulched with it, finishing our mulching for this spring. With all the plantings Jim has put in over the years, it does take a lot of mulch! He also put in some weeding time—in our yard! What a treat.

I worked on the second BOD document, assigning titles to the readings and charting their dates, until lunch. After lunch I went downtown to sing a rehearsal with St. Luke’s choir. Lisa, the choirmistress, wished for us to gain confidence singing in large spaces. This next Wednesday we shall go to another larger sacred space to rehearse so that when we hit the National Cathedral, it won’t be our first time to sing in a large space. For me, with 37 years’ experience singing at the very large Calvary Church downtown, it’s old hat to sing in a big room. However many of the St. Luke’s choir members have only sung at the very small St. Luke’s church. The rehearsal went well. I believe we will do very well.

Mick took our older cat, Sedgwick, to the vet’s while I was rehearsing, as Sedge has lost his lunch again and again for the last week or so and no amount of hairball-removing paste has been effective. If the problem is a big hairball, that will work to remove it and clear the cat’s digestive tract. Nothing was working.

The vet found that Sedge has a mass in his intestines. So next Wednesday Sedgie shall have an operation to remove the mass. We are devoutly praying that it is only in the intestines and not attached to an organ. Sedge is only nine years old, and we would like to keep him with us for another decade or so! He is such a devoted pussycat. Sometimes he sits on Mick’s lap and just looks at him. After a long time, he becomes so excited that he reaches up and gently nips Jim’s chin. It’s pure love, pure cat and very cute to see.

I got back from the rehearsal in time to work a bit more on assigning titles to the readings in the second BOD manuscript before it was time to dress up a bit and go pour wine for a St. Luke’s fundraiser. It was stylish. One of our members works for Brown Foreman Distillers. The fellow, Bob, got the company to donate all the wines, so our evening was pure profit. There were eight nice wines to sample and some very expensive bottles to raffle and we made enough for two people to have their expenses paid on the trip, over $800.00.

I was rather merry by the time I had sampled everything! I had thought I might be, so had arranged for Jim to pick me up. He brought me home and we got to relax, finally, and have some snuggle time. We said good night around midnight.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

After a restless night I awoke to a gray, chilly Sunday, wrote the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday and awoke Mick with a snuggle. We proceeded with our Sunday routine, the donuts, puzzles and eventually his house cleaning and my singing at St. Luke’s service. I also tried to peddle some choir CDs after the service, to no avail.

After lunch I just had enough time to check my mail and get a bath before it was time for the Sunday meeting. Bruce and Romi both came early and we had a good discussion about the audio projects we are looking at right now, both the general media transfer from archive tapes to archive CDs and specific CD work, like getting a good CD copy of the original Ra sessions. We also talked a good bit about whether or not to buy a CD recorder for use at Sunday meetings. So far Romi is against that. He says with a simple cable hook-up to one of our computers we can manually record each tape onto CD after it has been generated. That way we do not have the worries of fiddling with the CD recorder during the sessions. We already have to stop to tend to the tape recorders at the 45-minute interval, when side one runs out.

We had a lovely silent meditation and then more conversation with Romi’s love tea and the last of Connie’s shortbread cookies from last Sunday. More discussion ensued as Gary got home from Cracker Barrel and we all had supper. I asked Romi to report on all we had discussed to Ian before going any further. Ian is the senior member of this little committee by virtue of his life experience, which beats all of ours by quite a bit when it comes to how to do things with computers and sound equipment. We are most, most fortunate to have his skills on board.

I was absolutely exhausted and dozing in my chair off and on all evening and when Jim found himself joining me in inadvertent slumber he suggested that after the Gaia Meditation we come upstairs and get me into bed for the night. However we found new energy in the move and ended up enjoying each other and the dramas of TV until almost midnight.

Monday, May 15, 2006

The weather greeting us this morning was reminiscent of February, never rising above 50 F all day and spitting rain besides. I overslept and barely made it downstairs in time to awaken Jim, so my day started late. After Morning Offering Jim headed out to do his best with the mowing—and he succeeded, by virtue of working long and getting wet, to accomplish all his tasks—and I came upstairs with some tea to start my day.

I wrote the Camelot Journal entry for yesterday and then turned to Bruce’s suggestions for revising my outline for the three volumes of the Choice books. I think the changes he suggested are good but there are enough of them that I shall need to work again on the outline tomorrow before I really know what I think. I sent Bruce the changes I had made to his revisions so far, so that he could respond before tomorrow if he wished.

It was lunchtime when I finished writing Bruce, so I got some lunch, practiced the program we will sing in Washington next Sunday, and turned to thinking about my UPI article when I came back upstairs to work. When I realized that I wished to field at least one quote from our material for that column, and that the subject which my editor had requested this week was the Holy Spirit, I knew that I wanted to spend the bulk of the afternoon working on the Book of Days project. All of those short readings are channelings from the Holy Spirit through me which we collected when I was working to improve my tuning and challenging techniques back in the late ‘80s. By the end of the afternoon I had found a good reading from which to quote for the article for Larry and UPI.

Ian had cleaned up Gary’s rough transcript to an extent but there was still much to do to get the format the way I wished it to be, and then I had the remainder of those Days to read and title before I could begin to edit the readings themselves. This very picky work took almost all afternoon. I got all the Days charted for date and title and started, barely, on editing the Days themselves. I believe I stopped at Day 378 when Jim called bath time.

In and amongst this work I responded to some e-mail. I thanked Ian for cleaning the BOD manuscript. I thanked Fr. Ken for working with me on doing health testing for St. Luke’s congregation. Melissa and I talked further about how to place the Printing Fund for the Book of Days in QuickBooks. Accounting questions are somewhat baffling to me as I have never gotten the big picture there.

Jeremy had written to say he would not be able to have the planning session with me which he had hoped to have while I was in DC—Jer lives near there—because of his busy schedule, so I will plan to take my computer and work on the Book of Days in my free time Saturday. However my UPI editor, Larry M., invited me to his home in Maryland that same Saturday for a planning meeting as well as a nice social visit with him and his wife as we will lunch together during this meeting. With brother Tommy coming to the concert and service Sunday and visiting with the choir for the following luncheon, I will have a wonderful time visiting with good people in DC as well as singing and worshiping!

I wrote Dana to keep the faith with her as she goes through a difficult discerning process on how she wishes to treat her cancer. She has rejected an operation for now and is listening to lots of advice and reading on alternative methods. I gave her the information I have and promised to report on how it is working for another friend of mine who feels it is really helping his cancer to be healed.

Sandie and I talked back and forth throughout the day until we found a good evening on which to hold the channeling session for next month’s issue of Planet Light Worker. She says she has gotten a lot of positive feedback on this series of channelings and has found it to be one of the most read parts of her e-zine. I am glad for both of us. Her magazine is growing fast. It is very good. I believe she must have the best new age magazine on the internet. And she does such a great job of coming from the heart with all her material.

Jim made it home by 6:30 and we were bathed by 7:30 and ready to enjoy our kitty cats and some relaxation time. We had a particularly powerful Gaia Meditation and a late supper thereafter and came upstairs for an early night.

Gary has been working in his admin time on spreading our L/L Research Library book collections out, now that we have replaced Vara’s book cases and created hall shelving for expansion room. He moved the Channeling and Harvest collections to the new living room shelving which replaced Vara’s. That fills them well. Next comes the process of deciding what collections to move to the freed-up sections where those collections were before. The goal is to have room for all the collections to expand. I am woefully aware that this is substandard library practice. The books really need to be catalogued. How I would love to do that! But that is a full-time job and I have a couple of those already! It shall have to wait for my mythical retirement!

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

The day was more clement, with a high near 70 F. This was the first day in a while that found Jim working in a T shirt by the afternoon. Jim was mowing all day and I, too, was away for lunch, visiting with Vara before getting my hair cut.

That was a delightful interlude. Vara is full of dealings with Steve F’s contractors at her farmhouse, which she is caretaking for him on his farm near Shelbyville. She’s still enjoying herself alone in nature out there, although with the repairs to her home going on, she has less alone time than she would like. It was good to see her looking rested, well and happy.

Before I left for lunch I worked on and finished my UPI article for the week. Larry had asked for a piece on the Holy Spirit. I quoted both Holly herself, from the Book of Days channelings, and the Q’uo talking about guidance systems in general and reflected to myself that mine is truly a unique voice because of my life experience and the material that has come through this group.

After I returned Gary had some questions for me. He is now finished with the very excellent adjustments to our Library collections so that they all have room to grow now. I am much relieved to have that work done as I am a librarian to the bone and the crowded books were crying out to me as I go about my daily work. Now they can breathe and are happy again!

When I could, I got back upstairs to put in a few licks on the Book of Days and got to Day 383. This document goes through Day 451 and I need to edit, and then reread to catch my mistakes, so I have a ways to go. However it is good to see the progress. Steady work will get this sweet work printed—I just need to keep at it.

I was not able to focus down into the Choice outlines today and so slated that for tomorrow morning.

Tobey wrote requesting a planning session while I am in DC this weekend. However I am already booked with Larry, my UPI editor, for Saturday lunch. I suggested either supper after the choir rehearses at 6 PM Saturday or his joining the entire choir for lunch after the service Sunday. I imagine he’ll choose the Saturday supper to meet, unless he would really rather hear our concert and attend the service Sunday, which he may do, since he and his family worship as Episcopalians.

Jim and I voted in the Democratic primaries here locally when he got home and then had a marvelously refreshing whirlpool and lazed our way through an excellent news program by Amy Goodman on the true facts behind Bush’s new Mexican border plans. My personal opinion, which no one needs to agree with, is that we are living now in a true police state.

As a child of German and English immigrants—granted my Dad’s people came here over a century ago and my Mom’s folks were here before the Revolutionary War; we were still immigrants; not natives—I resent the treatment these decent, hard-working and very productive Hispanic people are getting. If I could just walk longer than two minutes I would be marching again, which I have not done since the Viet Nam War. As I told Jim, this are radical times, just as the late sixties were. They call for people to rise up and attempt to restore a sense of fairness and justice among us.

But I do not obsess over this sad situation. I try to understand it as accurately and deeply as I can. This is the situation I incarnated to affect with my love, light and service. This is what I came to love. I will love this mess, not judge and condemn it. I think we Americans are good people who have been turned into sheep by decades of very good propaganda. We only need to stop listening to the official media and start examining things on our own to begin to reassess what is occurring.

Gary worked late into the night, bless his kind heart, trying to install blinds in my upstairs office. It faces east and with the bank of four 3×6’ windows across it, the morning sun can blind me from seeing my computer screen, so the Venetian blinds are going in. Romi came to the rescue as Jim and Gary both had figured the installation wrongly and Romi, who had made the same error when he installed his own blinds, corrected the procedure. The first of four blinds is up and looks terrific. Just what I wanted!

Romi worked on the computers, updating the software and working to restore network function in the house. That’s a delicate thing, that network. It conks out pretty often. For now we’re all back on line.

We had a Gaia Meditation, with Romi offering the ending prayer, and then a late supper and so to bed after a good conversation about the media transfer project. It looks as though we shall get a CD recorder after all.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

The honeysuckle has finished blooming and the irises are taking the stage in our yard today, with Gandalf’s azalea in the last of its bloom in the back yard. Things are coming into bloom late this month with this chilly weather. Jim started off his day early, taking Sedgie to the vet’s for his exploratory operation. The vet said that Sedgwick’s cancer is too far advanced for treatment of any kind. He sewed him back up without doing anything but look around and sent him home.

It is a tremendous joy to bring a new kitten into the family. It is just as tremendous a sorrow when that kitten has a life-ending diagnosis, nine years later. We will try some alternative methods, using Hulda Clark’s suggested herbs and Green Hope Farm’s flower essences for pets. The herbs are available in tincture form so we can treat Sedge just using his water. And the vet suggested that he could probably eat the “baby food” for pets, of which we have two cases left over from when Abigail, another of our beloved cats, was in end-life last year. We will enjoy Sedge every day we can. And miracles are always possible.

I spent the morning on the outlines for The Choice 101 and 102, sending the finished version off to Bruce for a final check. Tomorrow I’ll tackle 103’s outline. It will be good to get this outline together and work on getting the quotes database back in good shape.

After lunch I worked to clear some mail from the Inbox. I talked with Jennifer L., my editor at Louisville Jazz Society Newsletter, agreeing to meet with her after Memorial Day when she has more time, to discuss my column for them. She wants me to take a different tack with it, so we’ll need to have a good chat on that.

Joan A had written to ask if she could question me as to how some things had turned out, about which she was hearing as she transcribes my old letter tapes from a tough period in my life, the late 80s and early 90s when I could not sit up or do much of anything because of severe problems in my spine and shoulders. I told her by all means ask away, after she has put in so very much heart and finger time on the letters project.

I ordered the flower essences from Green Hope Farm for Sedge and wrote Bruce to ask him about Hulda Clark’s suggested dosages for an eleven-pound cat. He has her books.

I wrote Tommy and Tobey about my upcoming visit to DC as they both wish to visit with me during the trip.

After a brief discussion and check-signing session with Melissa and Gary I was off to get my nails done, a treat for this trip.

Coming back around 4 PM, I worked on the Book of Days editing until Jim called bath time, editing through Day 395.

Jim and I greatly enjoyed a whirlpool together and had a brief time to relax and catch up before I was off to the last St. Luke’s choir rehearsal before the concert this weekend. We sang at a large suburban church large enough to give us more experience singing in a resonant space, as St. Luke’s is a tiny church compared to the National Cathedral and dead, sound-wise, with its low ceilings. The rehearsal went very well.

I missed the Gaia Meditation completely, not returning home until 10 PM. Jim and I had a very late supper together with Gary and some good conversation before we all said good night. Jim and I came upstairs for a snuggle and sought our beds around midnight.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

After the morning snuggle and Morning Offering I headed up to work on the outline for The Choice 103. I worked on that for most of the morning, sent it off to Bruce and then realized I had not addressed some comments he had sent. After reading them I changed some topic phrases to avoid repetitive phrasing and sent Bruce the revised outline.

I got a couple of questions organized for the public meeting on May 28, one from Andy B. and one from the trio of Tobey W., Terry H. and Steve T. and sent those off to the gentlemen to get their final OK on the form.

Jim had asked me to request of Jeremy that he dismantle the Alternative Viewpoints forum on the B4 site. I sent the request in to Jeremy. However Jeremy does not wish to do so. We shall have a conversation, but not until after this weekend’s trip!

It is a moot point, really. It is good to have the tolerance to offer detractors of our work a place to kvetch on our B4 site. But it is also naïve. Because, ironically, the kvetcher posts daily, which makes that forum come up as the most used forum. New people tend to go there first, get discouraged and leave, never to return. In order to be able to offer the good things on our site, Jim feels we need to remove the kvetching. He says we need to let the complainers create their own forum or site.

I had lunch and then edited the transcript for the May 7 Sunday channeling before leaving to get my teeth cleaned. On the way out I signed checks and had a brief planning session with Melissa, who continues to organize and clean up the office. Today she was in the tax files, trying to create order and find all the L/L Research tax records for previous years.

When Jim arrived home and my teeth were cleaned I let him know Mel was looking for the L/L Research 990 tax forms and he obligingly pulled them out for her. I am so glad he had them! The prospect of obtaining duplicates from the IRS was not attractive! Our accountant, who has just taken over the L/L Research books, wishes to see the prior year tax records so Melissa is working hard to find them.

The power was off when I got home, so we stirred around finding our lanterns and flashlights. However the storm was not bad and our outage was isolated, so we got quick service and were back in business by the time Jim and I had done a round of errands. We were most pleased as the prospect of having no lights and warm water overnight was a bit dreary.

Jim worked on getting book orders ready to mail while Gary and I conversed after the Gaia Meditation, with me offering the closing prayer. In this case it was a spontaneous song that rolled out of me, a nice change in praying. It reminded me of the old days when I would channel a singing entity called Nona.

We said good night to Gary and came up to snuggle about 10:30, turning off the lights at about midnight.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

The trip to Washington DC was both a grand success for our choir and a wonderful time for me with visiting. I spent the day on Friday packing and closing out my e-mail. After all was done, the cats patted, the house straight and packing complete, I also managed to edit a recent session which Jon G. had arranged. It is an interesting session, dealing with the balance of love and wisdom and a lot of related issues.

The airplane journey was smooth and I enjoyed rooming with Kathy, whom I have known since she was an infant. She is a contemporary of my brother, Tommy. The hotel was splendid except for the human factor, which was poor because they were understaffed. They had no bell service, which a handicapped person like myself needs.

Saturday I had lunch with Larry M, my UPI editor. We had a good talk and created another dozen or so topics for me to tackle in upcoming columns. It was a pleasure seeing him in person, meeting his family and sharing lunch with them in their tidy suburban home. I think of this effort as being part of my L/L work, since the whole purpose of writing the column is to create familiarity with the Law of One concepts.

I read in Papa’s latest letters, which are hundreds of pages long, no exaggeration, about 300 pages for the five letters he just sent on one CD before I left, until it was time for our rehearsal. The choir caravanned over to Virginia Theological Seminary, a stunningly beautiful campus, and sang in their chapel.

Sunday was completely taken up through about 1:30 with the trip to National Cathedral, singing our program and then the service, then getting group pictures and then attending a reception in our honor. Both Tobey W. and my brother Tommy were at the service and came to lunch with the choir afterwards. Tommy, Tobey, his charming daughter, Elise, and I sat at a separate table and enjoyed conversations about the web site, the forum and just general chat.

When lunch broke up Tobey and Elise took off for their home and Tommy took me by his place in Falls Church, where I greatly enjoyed talking with him, Christiana, Emily and Ted, their children. Tommy deposited me back in the Baltimore airport in good time for making the flight and I was back home, most thankful for a good trip and for arriving home in good shape.

Monday, May 22, 2006

I slept thankfully and profoundly in my own bed and awoke with seconds to spare in getting downstairs to awaken Mick and start our day. We have a new routine with Sedgie now that he has to eat special food, a baby-food version of cat food which we also fed to our Siamese cat, Abigail, for a long time at her life’s end. Sedge loves the baby food and so do all the other cats, so we must close the bedroom door when we feed him. Jim closes him in my bedroom while he is doing morning chores and I let him out when I come up to the office to work. We repeat at night!

I spent the morning getting the desk cleared, the e-mail Inbox cleared and regaining a sense of where I am with things. I wrote a Camelot Journal entry for the whole weekend, got Ian the ISBN number he needs in order to go forward with the volume of channeling from 2005 and responded to Melissa’s saying that she will be leaving us at the end of June. We need to find a bookkeeper.

I worked on the comments Bruce had made on the outline for The Choice 102 which I did not get to before the trip and sent that back to him, so now he has the outlines with responses made to all of his comments. I have not heard from him since I returned. Jim, however, talked with him when he mowed Avalon over the weekend. We really had some hay going in the meadows! Jim said the grass was over four feet tall.

Ian had asked for some material for editing Jon G’s transcript for the site and I sent that to him. I caught up with Dana, whose diagnosis of cancer has deepened. The spinal cells are growing quite quickly. Her attitude is one of profound gratitude and a determination to experience the end of her life peacefully and gracefully. There is tremendous strength in her simple and loving approach to this situation. It is most inspiring and I told her so.

Tommy had tried to send me the photos and video he took of the choir in DC but they did not send properly and all I got were text notes of the titles of the pictures. I imagine he’ll send me a CD with the material on it since his Mac and my PC are not exactly simpatico.

Gary and I had a fairly substantial conversation by e-mail, with both of us right here in the house. Among other things, I asked him to get Jim’s pile of recent L/L Research transcripts ready so he can select the next issue of Light/Lines. It is amazing how handy e-mail is! We were both busy with other things but were able to communicate quickly and effectively. Our current technology creates almost endless ways to communicate. Now to use that resource well! That’s the challenge.

Finally I felt once again current with what was happening in the world of L/L Research and turned to editing the Book of Days material. I got through Day 406, breaking that 400 mark, which was very cheering! Then a glitch appeared in the software settings and suddenly every time I hit “enter” to make a paragraph break, I was getting a page break instead. I could not figure out how to fix it so I sent the file to Ian, who is wonderfully competent at such repairs. By the time I return to this material tomorrow he will have it fixed for me! What a guy,

Jim came home a bit early to help me with the Planet Light Worker session and we got together with Sandie and her friend, Carol, who was visiting from out west, at about 6 PM to sit for the session. Their question was about the sun spots and subsequent geomagnetic radiation being experienced these days and how we can deal with the sometimes dramatic ways we can respond to these influences—and not in a comfortable way. I look forward to reading the response from the Q’uo group when I receive the transcript to edit.

Then Sandie, Carol and I said farewell to Mick, who wished to do some things around the house, and went to a marvelously tasty supper at the nearby Corner Café, where we had a long and brain-bending discussion about how to create teaching opportunities for me via internet radio. I am not at all clever in such matters and was having a fit trying to understand her ideas. However they do sound… well, sound. They resonate to me. I shall need to ponder them.

We did a short Gaia Meditation at the table while Jim and Gary offered one at home. We arrived back home after ten, so said good night and came right upstairs to enjoy a closing snuggle before finding sleep around midnight.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Today was a day in true Eden. Kentucky can be perfectly heavenly this time of year, the sweet sun shining gently on the abundant grasses and new, whole leaves of spring. I was out in it yesterday morning as I went on an extended hunt for some herbal products for our cat with cancer, Sedgewick. I found the wormwood and the green hulls of the black walnut tree in tincture form but had to buy raw, whole cloves. We shall need to make a tincture of them once we grind them up, or choose to put a pinch of the fresh-ground cloves in his baby food.

I am ever impressed by St. James, who spent most of his evening puzzling over Bruce’s three pages of instructions, which he had gleaned from Hulda Clark’s books and also talking with a vet in the Bedford area who has worked with pets using those herbs. It’s complex. He made a schedule which takes up a whole legal pad page. But trust me here: Jim will administer every drop and pinch with accuracy and all the love in the world. If Sedge manages to make it through the three-month regimen, the cancer will probably be quite gone.

We are fortunate indeed that this herbal treatment is so easy on Sedge. I believe it to be our best chance to help him extend his life with us.

The Camelot Journal’s dating had gotten upscrod and Jeremy and I talked throughout the day as he tried to fix it. Hopefully the dating makes sense now! I probably clicked the wrong button!

I found Tom Flaherty’s Bishop’s Blend reference for him, in the Episcopal Relief and Development Fund site, http://www.allsaintstupelo.com/allcoffeefix.html. You can buy good Guatemalan coffee there which is hand-picked by growers who actually get the money back from the sales. This is far better than when the big coffee companies take their coffee, for the big companies pay almost nothing to the pickers. So the buyer gets organic, excellent coffee and helps the effort out while the coffee grower makes a living wage from his hard work. It is one of the Episcopalian Church’s better ideas for outreach. You can even set it up to receive the coffee automatically.

I ordered the last item on Bruce’s list, which I could not find anywhere in town: a powder called IP6. VitaSprings has it and now it’s on its way. We are also waiting still on Green Hope Farm’s flower essences. Soon we’ll have all his balms in place.

I decided to write on the economy and trade for my UPI column this week, as Larry had asked me what the spirit world thought of that. It should be a fun article to write but I never got further than searching the archive site for references to that topic and collecting three good thoughts from our older channelings.

Gary came up to my office for a planning session. We do not schedule them. He comes and gets my ear when he’s ready to catch up. We had quite a long session as there were some concerns about B4. After a good talk, I set about working to solve the concerns and that took up the entire rest of the afternoon. I was just sending the resulting e-mail to Jeremy and Gary when Mick called bath time.

We had a lovely bath and rest and then went back downstairs to greet Romi, who had arrived for an evening visit. The new CD recorder has also arrived. Gary and Romi spent most of the evening getting the CD recorder set up at Gary’s station. He will begin recording all the Law of One tapes on to CDs as the first leg of our media transfer project. The idea here is to preserve the material. Tapes disintegrate whereas CDs are a tougher and longer lasting medium.

After the Gaia Meditation, with Gary offering the prayer, and a late supper, Jim and I left Gary and Romi conversing comfortably in the office and came upstairs for a final snuggle before saying good night at 11 PM.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

A Wednesday without choir practice feels a little strange but we earned a free day, as a choir, last weekend! Jim had a lovely, dry day in which to work and was off early. I tackled the subject of economics and trade for my weekly UPI article, worked on the article all morning and barely made the noon deadline.

I stopped for lunch and then came back up to digest some e-mail and turn to editing the Book of Days. I am so close to finishing this large project that it seems right to me to go ahead and complete it. I opened the document and was dismayed to find that its format had gone south again and it was still inserting page breaks every time I hit enter, so again I sent it to Ian, who kindly fixed it in just a few seconds, being on line, and so I was able to get to it right away. I got through Day 435 by the time 5 PM rolled around.

I had intended to go out and garden at five, so I quit up here, closed up shop and went down to put on my tennies and go for some weeds, but it turned out that Jim had started the bath a bit early, so I came back upstairs and worked at clearing my desk until Jim came and got me.

This was jazz night! We went to hear Walker and Kays at Clifton’s Pizza, enjoying a wonderfully upbeat and smooth set while downing a calzone. We offered the peace meditation on the way home, with me offering the prayer.

I believe Melissa was here today but I never saw her. I must deal with the upcoming departure of our excellent bookkeeper. I shall write her soon about this since I did not get to talk with her.

A late evening snuggle and some lazy vedge TV gave Mick and me the background for a soft conversation and an early good night.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

It had rained overnight and I went to lunch with an old girlfriend walking through puddles and that wonderful smell you only get when the blessed rain has washed everything clean and clear. Mary Ann B. drew our coloring book images for us back in the early nineties when we published that—a work of which I am proud, as most metaphysical groups who publish forget the little souls growing up in the families who like their material. We have something good for kids!

Mary Ann also meditated with the L/L Research group on Sundays all through the seventies and most of the eighties before she had to take on a second job in order to get her kids through college. When that crunch hit she got out of the habit of attending and never has made it back. So it was old home week today!

We had a mutually refreshing and strengthening conversation. Girlfriend time is The Best! I hope she felt as validated and uplifted as I did afterwards!

Other than that, the day was all about my working on the Book of Days. Bruce sent the latest version of the Choice outlines back this morning, but I am so very close to finishing this Holy Spirit channeling project that I decided to go for it. I think I may be able to finish my part in it completely, at least for now, over the next two or three days.

By the day’s end I had gotten all the remaining Days titled and charted and edited for the first time through Day 457. Since there are only 470 Days, I am very close now to finishing the initial editing. I am excited to see the progress!

Jim and I had a quiet and pleasant evening, offered the Gaia meditation with Jim offering the closing prayer, and had a lovely late-evening snuggle before saying good night at eleven.

Friday, May 26, 2006

The power had gone off just as Jim and I were heading to bed last night and I was thrilled to see it come back on before it was time to awaken for today as I had designs on my computer! Jim and I enjoyed a good snuggle before heading into our Friday. After Morning Offering, Jim and Gary were off to do their record number of lawns while I headed upstairs to work on the Book of Days.

Except for stopping for lunch and also talking with Melissa about the bookkeeping needs, I kept my head down and worked on the Days all day. I got the initial editing through Day 470 done by lunch and after lunch I started in on reading through for the second time from Day 366 onward. By bath time I had gotten the second of the three documents for this project done and sent off to Ian for his final edit. I still have to read through the last nineteen Days one more time and then I shall be able to move on to selecting the Days for each date of the year.

We celebrated it’s being Friday night with a relaxed evening of conversation, World Music on Link TV and reading. I am enjoying Gary’s gift of The DaVinci Code and Jim read in our transcripts until he found the one he chose for our next newsletter.

We went to bed around midnight after enjoying all the kitties sleeping around us on my bed. It is so very good to see our little silky black Chloe and the bravely striped Daniel hanging out between my legs while marmalade-colored Pickwick sleeps on my lap and faux-Siamese Sedge hangs out at the shelf by the bed’s foot. It has taken some patience to see the cats come to a rapprochement and act like one family but it has worked! We are blessed with peace at last! The crown of the evening was Picky and Daniel licking each other.

Sedge absolutely refuses to take cloves, but we have begun giving him the other herbs and flower essences now. We hope for the best. Sedge is enjoying the baby food and seems happy as a lark, bless his heart.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

This was a sweet day indeed, as I was able to finish up the text editing for the Book of Days and send the last of the three documents to be used for making up this little devotional book to Ian for final editing. I also printed out the chart of Days and dates. The next step is to print all the Days out so Jim and I can select just the right reading for each calendar day in the year.

Ian and I are also talking about an e-book version which contains all 470 Days plus Jo Weber’s drawings. That would be excellent also if we get to that, but I’m thrilled to have gotten this far with the print version of the book.

I helped Jim cook this morning as Jim needs to take Sedgie to the vet to get his stitches out and has numerous other errands, collecting repaired tools all over town. I am always impressed with how smoothly the cooking routine goes these days with Jim and Gary in charge. They cook fewer dishes and never give themselves a dessert or a homemade bread as I used to do. However they are happier doing less work and their diet does not demand such baked goods at all.

A surprise visit from Eric S., Jim’s neighbor from before 1980, when he lived an hour southeast of Louisville in Marion County, Kentucky, stopped all of our work for the day. We knocked off and visited with Eric and his Mom, who has moved to Lebanon and with whom he is now living.

It is interesting to see how character proves itself through time. Eric was a sound and effects man for the Grateful Dead and other San Francisco groups back in the sixties. He and his then-wife came to Kentucky to get back to the land. Eric was considered a hippie, especially after his wife left him and he lived alone, self-sufficient but quite poor. However he always made enough money to be sure his daughter was taken care of and eventually he put her through college.

Now he is the one of the four children in his birth family who has stepped up to the plate after his Mother became quite ill. She told me yesterday that he literally saved her life, removing her, at her request, from a nursing home and making a home for her here in Kentucky. She has now recovered completely from a condition the doctors were quite hopeless about, saying she would always be vegetative. She was pretty sharp yesterday!

Eric is still physically homely as he has not taken care of his teeth and is still poor. However his spirit shines. We had a fascinating, rambling conversation with them. Old friends are such a treasure!

Jim wrapped some books to mail after they left but as for me, I decided to take some time off and just enjoy, so I settled down with reading the DaVinci Code. Gary worked for L/L today doing admin work and joined us for the Gaia Meditation, offering the closing prayer. We all said good night about eleven.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Our last public meeting before summer break occurred today and it was finally typical May weather, very hot and humid. Jim had his cleaning morning while I sang the service at St. Luke’s and then, after the service, took down names for those who wish to receive a CD of our concert at Washington National Cathedral. We have some good orders now which will help to defray the cost of this trip.

Mick had our lunch ready when I returned and we enjoyed dining together upon our traditional fast food before I bolted upstairs to edit the Planet Light Worker channeling session which is needed for their June issue. Getting that completed I sent it off to them and noticed that I had received an e-note from Ian saying that if I wished to print out the Days for sorting and choosing the Day for each date in the calendar year, I could send him all three manuscripts, which he would make into one unified document. Then he would install page breaks so that each Day would print out separately. This was a wonderful idea and I quickly sent him all three manuscripts. Within ten minutes, while I was still cleaning up e-mail, he turned the manuscript around. I sent it downstairs to the big printer and started printing out all the Days!

Coming downstairs to catch the pages being printed out I found Romi and Bruce already here and hard at work setting up the remote aspects of our meeting. The session was broadcast and I understand over forty people listened in for at least a part of the channeling session. We fielded questions from the remote group as well as people here in the local circle and people who had written in to us asking for a special question to be addressed. It was a real pot luck.

We had all kinds of equipment trouble with this session, most of which I was blissfully unaware of experiencing at the time. We shall need to purchase a new tape recorder and possibly new microphones.

After the session was concluded I continued to print out the Days. Then I three-hole-punched them. Jim and I sorted them into months and then within each month until we had them all set to use for the choosing process. Jim has agreed to work an hour each evening until we have the choices made. Certainly I could do this by myself, but I prefer doing this with Mick. Many is the project on which his has been an enormously helpful second opinion. We shall start tomorrow night, God willing. I’ll keep a chart of our decisions. By the end of this week we should have our Book of Days all chosen—366 Days made into a little devotional volume. These readings are so beautiful! I think the book will do well.

Bruce, Romi and Gary joined the Gaia Meditation after we had our supper and love tea, with Romi offering the closing prayer, and then the three gentlemen sat down in the office so Bruce could explain more about how the CD recorder works and how to use it to Gary and Romi. Sadly, it was all Greek to me! Jim observed for a while too but it felt the same to him. So we bade them all a thankful good night and came upstairs to pat kitties and have an evening snuggle before lights out at eleven.

Monday, May 29, 2006

Monday, Monday! It was a beautiful day, but one in which Jim had equipment woes and extra jobs! After Morning Offering Jim headed out for a very long and tough day while I took on the project of editing the session Mick had chosen for the next issue of Light/Lines. It is an interesting choice, the material being about the Holy Spirit and the Higher Self. I wrote comments for the issue and sent the entire lot off to Ian by lunch time.

I wrote Bruce to thank him for the new outlines and just to catch up in general, as I had not wanted to interrupt the conversation he, Gary and Romi were having Sunday night when Mick and I headed up to bed. I wrote Vara to let her know all was well as far as the Planet Lightworker channeling.

I spent some time trying to open Tommy’s pictures and video of Washington DC and our choir concert but could not get the little icons to open up into anything. That’s too bad, since we’ll have a choir party tomorrow and I know they would love to see these images.

I sent Ian some errata Bruce had discovered in a recent channeling when he was working on the audio version of it. That audio work is the topic of discussion with Ian and Gary as well as Bruce. Ian hopes for audio versions of our channeling that have somewhat different characteristics than Bruce is using. I spent quite a bit of time reading what various people have said and trying to figure out what the parameters are and what we should be doing to achieve the highest fidelity and most stable sound. I am, currently, at least, over my head in tech speak and ding my best just to aim for shore.

My desk had become awash in paper mail and I spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning that up, reluctant to start on the outlines so late in the day. I got about half done there! Jim called bath time a bit late, having finally come through the many waters of his day, and we had a marvelously rejuvenating whirlpool, got the grime of the day washed off and spent some serious relaxation time patting kitties and talking things over. Ah! The true joys of companionship! We dozed and chatted until eight and came downstairs for supper. Gary arrived home from a hard day at Cracker Barrel and we enjoyed the Gaia Meditation together, with Gary offering the prayer.

After the Meditation, Jim and I started choosing the Days for each calendric date and finished January! That’s a good start on that project. We closed up shop downstairs and called Mom McCarty, whom we had not been able to find at home Sunday when we usually call her. She had been on a 500-mile drive around Nebraska, putting new fake flowers on all the family grave sites. Mom had gotten in very late. She had a good time, though. It’s lovely country for wildflowers this time of year and she saw a whole lot of pretty scenery!

We came upstairs, snuggled and said good night at eleven or so.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Mick’s and my anniversary dawned hot and muggy, beckoning Mick to go cut some grass! He was off early and I came upstairs to find that my outlines from Bruce had gone missing. They had vanished both from my Outlook Inbox and from my Word files. I let Bruce know they were missing and asked him to resend.

Starting through my Inbox I found a session to edit, Elmer R’s session from last October, which has just been transcribed. I sent that off to Ian and spent the balance of the morning working with Gary on our audio questions and equipment woes. Gary went off to shop for a new pair of tape recorders for recording sessions and to take our big tape deck in to be tuned up.

I signed a couple of checks for Melissa and had lunch before coming back upstairs to tackle the rest of the e-mail. Tommy had tried once again to send the DC pictures. Again I could not open them but I did send them on to a couple of choir members who may have better tech skills than I. here’s hoping one of them can open the photos.

I wrote Steve T and Selcan T to ask them for news for the upcoming Gatherings Newsletter. I wrote Dana to check in with her—she has been dealing with a diagnosis of spinal cancer—and sent Rick C a report on the Louisville news responding to his Maine report. I thanked Michele M. for her suggestions on herbal remedies for fibromyalgia and caught up with Paul C, who was looking for volunteer transcribing to do. Andy B had written asking some questions about his upcoming session and I responded to him. Terry H. had asked a couple of questions from his study group in Taiwan which I answered as best I could. I thanked Romi for his troubleshooting guide, which he kindly wrote up for Gary and me, so we could at least try to solve some typical computer problems on our own, like the printer not printing or the computer not working.

I spent the rest of the afternoon writing back and forth to Ian on the audio situation and about B4 as well. Ian asked me to talk with Mick this evening concerning the audio versions of our sessions which are up on the www.antiquatis.org site. We have no way to edit the personalities out of those sessions, so there is a privacy issue involved. As well, in these audio versions much silence has been taken out of the sessions. It makes them easier to listen to but we are concerned that the spiritual quality of the tapes has been compromised. There is a powerful energy that accompanies the tapes and that quality is in the silence, not the words.

Once I had dealt with all of these myriad concerns, some of which I had been putting off for a while, I discovered that the outlines had been given back to me! I was very glad to see them! I suppose spirit wanted me to catch up on these concerns!

It is our anniversary! Mick gave me a beautiful card and we went out, after our bath, to Le Relais, a marvelous French restaurant at Bowman Field, a private air field near my old neighborhood of the Highlands, where Don and I lived for twelve years, from 1968 to 1980. It was heavenly sitting in the breezy deck of the restaurant watching touch and goes while dining very well indeed! Jim and I had that talk and we decided to halt the audio promulgation for now, as we cannot control it the way we’d like to do.

Our Gaia Meditation was at our table, with me offering the prayer at the end.

We topped off this very romantic evening with a snuggle and bade each other good night most joyfully around midnight.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Our catalpa tree was giving its sweet incense to the morning air as I got the paper this morning. The mugginess is very high now. Jim is working in a steam bath today. After our morning routine of snuggling, reading the paper and making our Morning Offering, Jim went off to garden and mow and I headed upstairs to work on the UPI article for this week. This time I tackled the subject of the Fall of Man, so-called. I spent the morning on it and sent it in by the deadline. You can find it on www.upi.com, clicking on religion and spirituality and then on columnists to find my name.

Gary most kindly helped me with our kitty, Sedge’s, drops at lunch. Sedgie is very hard to hold as he does not like the taste of the green black walnut hulls, made into a tincture. We are attempting to affect his cancer with the herbs. Jim is administering most of the drops but at lunch I am responsible for his regimen. Sedge seems as sweet and happy as ever with no obvious discomfort, which is great!

After lunch I edited a long channeling session from earlier this month which had come in. it was an interesting potpourri of questions from the local group and also from the internet. The Q’uo mentioned especially how much they enjoy these non-local sessions where people are attending from all over the world.

I kept up with my correspondence with Dana and with Bruce, both of whom are dealing with some discomfort in their daily life. It is good to have support at such times.

I consulted with Melissa before she left for the day and talked with Gary about our equipment set up. He acquired a new cable for that set up before leaving to visit his family in Ohio on the occasion of his little sister’s graduation from high school. He will be gone for the weekend, while Mick and I will enjoy our first summer Sunday of watching some movies instead of hosting the Sunday meditations for L/L Research. We’re off until September.

Having just a few minutes at the end of the day, I turned to the chart for the final disposition of the Days in the print version of the Book of Days and finished typing out the dates for the whole year. I also added in the chosen Days for January. We are trying to keep the material as close as possible to the date of collection to retain the freshness of the readings.

Mick was almost pale when he came home, having drunk a full two gallons of water and run through half a dozen tee shirts doing his work. I was so glad to see him! He was about an hour late. I was supposed to attend a choir party but with Jim not home yet, I just had no desire to go. I wanted to see with my own eyes that he had survived this sauna of a day out there. He came home happy as a clam, however, reporting a smooth day’s work and some extra jobs here and there which had made him late.

The whirlpool and bath were just heavenly and I spent some time in the swirling water focusing on gratitude. Jim and I are so lucky to have each other and good work to do, the kitties and all the beauties and blessings of being together and tackling things as one. I could feel the bath water being magnetized with all the thankfulness! I sometimes feel strongly sure that angels are all around me when I pray in the bath. I think the water really magnifies the energy of prayer. We were glowing! Chloe, undismayed by having fallen in the bathtub recently, loves to observe our every move from a perch at the bathtub’s narrow rim! Dan will peer over the edge but he does not just sit down and settle in the way Chloe does. She must enjoy water as she has visited both the bath water and the toilet bowl’s water—albeit very briefly both times. She is well named The Fearless, that little rascal. Both kittens weigh four pounds now! They are thriving.

Jim and I spent some time after the bath dozing and chatting, talking over B4 and whether that site is a good one. We are hoping to take some time just to envision and dream this summer, letting the pace of development on B4 slow while we assess its design and purpose.

Democracy Now and World Music saw us through the gathering of news and the gathering of our thoughts as well as some snoozing time. At eight, we came down for a small supper, for me and a handsome, generous meal for Jim. Jim offered the ending prayer at the Gaia Meditation. We realized that until Sunday, when Gary returns, we are alone in the house. It’s a peculiar feeling! We are not a nuclear family. We are a community. We missed Gary!

Our last work for the day was to choose the Days for February in the Book of Days. This little devotional book just rocks. I love the process of getting this project completed at last. We came upstairs and enjoyed each other until eleven, when we said good night.

L/L Research Carla’s Niche Camelot Journal May, 2006

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