(Channeling from the Holy Spirit, April 18, 1987)

I am of the principle of the Love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that lively Love.

As we gaze upon your springtime this holy Saturday we see much that the Earth has yet to bear, much that shall come to birth and bloom, flourish, and then, in its turn return to what some call a tomb and others call a time of transformation. How the little shadows and lights of each incarnation among all the peoples of the Earth blend together in one beautiful kaleidoscope of light and dark, times of blooming and times of dark waiting. Without the nurturing darkness, could the bloom be half so beautiful? And were it not for the blooming, would the searching, reaching, and learning underground be satisfactory as a condition for the soul of plant or man? My children, we ask you to accept the times of darkness; accept the times of nurturing, reaching, stretching and unknowing, for even in the numbest, most dead of feelings there is that quality of underground nourishment, and there shall come a time of blooming. Yet pray it may be the time appointed for jubilee, for bloom for you, that in season you may bloom and rejoice.

We leave you in the peace of the eternal cycles of creation, now and always. Amen.


Group question: No matter what the sophisticated or old-fashioned method of consciousness expansion a person tries, what spiritual growth really seems to boil down to is a lot of trial and error and being able to deal with disappointment when we see ourselves fall short of our ideals. Would you speak to the idea that there really don’t seem to be any shortcuts in spiritual growth and to the part that disappointment and faith play in the path of the seeker of truth?

(Q’uo, January 1, 1989)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator, on whose behalf we have been called here to manifest those thoughts of love and light that may perhaps find a ready, listening ear, so that we may be of some small service. For this to be possible is the height of our hope at this particular point in our development, and we cannot thank you enough for enabling us to speak through this instrument.

Upon this subject, the subject of the spiritual journey, we could begin speaking in one way, find another way of gazing at the same experience, and in always relevant fashion we would be unable to exhaust the ways in which one may gaze at and imagine the true structure of the spiritual journey. That is, there is nothing particularly spiritual about the journey. It, like any other ordeal, is a matter of certain, shall we say, natural laws with the ever-balancing axis always at ninety degrees to those laws of the unpredictability of free will.

But this evening you have chosen to gaze at the spiritual journey in terms of time commitment, in terms of whether by taking thought, one might accelerate the pace of spiritual growth. My children, if we of Q’uo did not believe that it were possible to accelerate the spiritual growth of careful and persistent students by means of inspirational messages, we would not be working with this instrument, for it is no part of our intention to waste our time. However, the truth is that it is extremely possible; that is, it is possible in almost any degree desired by the entity to accelerate the pace of spiritual growth. The difficulty from within the illusion is that particularly difficult manifestations of accelerated spiritual growth are emotional pain, irritation with one’s self for having failed, and other negative emotions.

The extremely simple reason for the seeming paradox is that in times of greatly accelerated growth, large-scale changes are being made in the road map of various portions of the program and metaprogram of the mind, and, especially when these changes have reached the initiatory or meta-programmic phase, many, many feelings and actions will seem to have been those of an over-sensitive, immature and imbalanced person. This person will consider itself the least of all those who seek, for it is not manifesting cheerfulness, gaiety, merriment and freedom, but rather, suffering under a burden. However, when the memory has wound its golden bands about these times and that which you call time has elapsed so that one may gaze back upon that golden-shrouded memory, one may see again and again the rapidity of growth side by side and inexorably tied to the most nauseating and humiliating of failures. It is for this reason that within the illusion, it is most often felt that there are no short cuts, and that one must simply bumble along by trial and error.

In point of fact, when working with the deeper programming of the meta-consciousness, the movement of feeling within may be in such a powerful way that it may seem irresistible and perhaps counter to usual politeness. These expressions, however, are to be credited as part of the mind, not part of something called hysteria or emotions, but rather those times when the metaprogram has once and for all time changed a deep, deep program. There may well be some sort of release from change so deep that you do not understand it, and the fact that you may perhaps be disappointed in yourself must be accepted by you as a condition of your attempt to live a life based upon the faith that there is indeed a kindly Creator, a Creator made of love, which loved us first, and to whom our response is faith.

Now with those things said about the difficulties of progression and the lack of shortcuts being incorrect, let us say that a person does indeed use tools to move himself toward such a time of vision, a time of initiation, a time of change and metamorphosis. A person may use the techniques of deprivation known in many, many systems of expression toward the Infinite Creator: the fasting, the changing of the daily routine to one of silence and devotion. All those daily acts of meditation and worship, whether it be for a moment or for a minute or for an hour, in their dailiness they keep you, the pilgrim soldier, upon the road. You are battling something you may well call disappointment. We would prefer to call it the uninformed intellectual mind. Your minds are very, very full of those opinions based only upon what this instrument would call conventional wisdom. Within your heart are stored the natural laws. It is well to know how to act lawfully within your society. It is well to act lawfully within that society.

It is also extremely well for you as a spiritual self to know who you are and who that individual that carries you around is. This is most important to you. If you do not know the large bipedal animal upon which you so depend, if you do not appreciate it, provide well for it, accept it, nurture it, and take care of it, then you as a consciousness will find it more and more difficult to spend intensity and time upon the spiritual search.

So let yourself be the nurturer of yourself. When you are disappointed in yourself, let your nurturing self remember that you are only disappointed within the illusion. You have no idea, my children, of what a blessing your hopes, your intentions and your ideals are. The light of those ideals is the light of your planet. Your zest for truth, your fidelity to the Creator, your living by faith and never by words; these things go beyond that self that carries you about. These things are what you really are: a being of faith. In times of disappointment, allow that being to nurture, protect, comfort and soothe you, for it is difficult to move quicker than the body is ready to go, than the mind is ready to move. It is a hard thing to change, and indeed it should be carefully resisted. Each change should be seen, considered and approved, by your discriminating and entire self, a self always informed and centered by daily meditation.

To sum up, my children, each of you has spent many years accelerating the course of spiritual growth. Each of you has seen the most fruits come into manifestation in the midst of iniquity, error, mistake after mistake and self-perceived sin. Each is able to see that compassion has grown during pain, beyond one’s limits, and beyond the pale of that which would not disappoint one. Yes, you shall disappoint yourself again and again, and may we say, the more you disappoint yourself, the more you are trying to do, and the more we salute your brave spirit. Never, ever, allow the words that your mind can create to attack your faith and your hope that all that is painful will also be fruitful, and all that is difficult will also become that which is golden, that which brings the compassion to the heart, the understanding to the mind. For at the end of each and every failure, at the end of each and every limitation, once accepted and forgiven, can the self find the corresponding compassion for that same limitation in each and every other human being which it encounters in the same situation.

May you grow sweeter through adversity, and, most of all, may we say perhaps our greatest hint to you, as those who would like to continue speeding up the rate of acceleration of growth spiritually, learn to work as hard during those times perceived as positive as those times perceived as negative, and the negative events shall not need to occur.

In order to gain from the positive, one must do what would be impossible, were not one familiar with negativity; that is, one must push against one’s own standards of excellence, attempting at all times to give more and more praise to the Creator, more and more of one’s conscious hours, attempting more and more, in moving into the sleep pattern, to program the self for the learning, and the setting of new metaprograms closer to the One Great Original Thought. Do these things faithfully. Work during the easy, the happy, the contented and the peaceful times, and you shall become ever more peaceful and contented. The work must be done, my children. You have designed this into your incarnations. You, yourselves, will judge yourselves at the end. Yes, it shall be as the greater Self, but it shall be you specifically and personally that must riffle the pages of this incarnation.

Claim your disappointments now. Face them and learn from them and grow sweet with compassion. In this way, may the disappointment at seeming failure become, appropriately and in a balanced fashion, appreciation of and forgiveness of one’s limitations, of the history and the tracks of one’s change into an impersonal source of love. Then when, without the veil, you stand and gaze upon your life you shall see that you were aware that there is no such thing as earthly disappointment, but only the sounds, the experiences, the side products, the pain and the difficulties of transformation. May you intend always the highest and best that you know, and may each limitation, disappointment and seeming failure become for you the opportunity of self-forgiveness, appreciation of yourself, and the nurturing of your growing spirit.


(Q’uo, March 16, 1986)

We would give to you our encouragement and speak upon meditation, for it is the key which unlocks the door to that which is within you, and that which is within you is nothing less than the One Original Thought which is the Creator. You may call this Creator “Universal Mind,” yet that is not precise, for the mind proceeded and precipitated from the Thought which was thought without mind, but only with consciousness. You are the Creator and as you experience each other, the Creator gains experience.

We speak from the point of view that the Creator has made a great sacrifice in causing a portion of Its being to have mind and to become independent, for there is much effort in accepting the free will of portions of Itself which seem disharmonious with other portions of Itself. And yet the Creator has repeatedly made this sacrifice of wholeness without effort in order to bring Itself an expanded Self. The Creator, shall we say, takes the very, very long view and looks upon all that occurs through all the densities and dimensions in order that it may key into Its own Self all of the selves that have become unique and learn all those things which each unique portion has learned. And you, yourself, are a sacrifice to your own mind. For without mind you would constantly be in a state of meditation, and all things would be whole and entire unto themselves and one with you and acceptable in every respect. Yet you have sacrificed that awareness to come into incarnation and to be limited by your separation from those things about you: the material of the seat upon which you now bear your weight, of each other because you can touch but you cannot become one in a physical sense. Separation seems to run very deep and one forgets that the stones sing, that the earth shouts with rejoicing and that the trees skip in the springtime. How easy it is to feel oneself separate from the life that indwells all things. How easy it is to feel separated from oneself, to feel that there are factions within the self which must be reconciled, to find oneself analyzing and re-analyzing to no avail. The only road from separation into unity is keyed with meditation. Some there are who benefit from meditating at great length. Some there are who benefit from meditating a brief few minutes each day, and some there are whose meditations are in action, and through action they are centered and one with all that is.

Therefore, do not assume that you know what meditation is and what your goals should be towards it, but, rather, as you meditate, listen to that voice which speaks within and meditate as that voice instructs you. There is no set time nor is there a set method. There is one thing, however, which we must emphasize and that is fidelity to the practice.


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